Be|nG mi

2006-06-16T04:04:00.000+08:00

i dont get it, i thought it would make my mind and thoughts clearer, instead i have become much more confused than before. i dunno what to think anymore. i am thinking too much, stop thinking so much! those voices in my head.. make it stop. really makes me wonder if i really still....you

2006-06-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

gosh i haven benn blogging lately.. feeling kinda lazy and everytime i book out i am likegoing out so often with different groups of pple. even had to suddenly cacel meetings with frens i'd already agreed to meet, argh well so sorry, will make it up to u guys sometime. but yea alls well in the wasted life of shaun right now. block leave!! finally left tekong and completed my guard duty..man i am sure gonna miss scorpion company.

wonder y so many other companies dun like us, well like my PC said, we do things differently in scorpion, we believe in giving recruits enough rest so they can give their best during training, unlike some other companies whole day marching getting punished but end up losing to us in everyting, they juz dun get it. well results speak for themselves yea? IPPT results best in tekong, shooting 100% pass, games day 3rd, drill comp 2nd, tug of war 1st.. RAAH.. well to all the others who are so proud of surviving the daily ass-whooping by sergents everyday well.. ok so u can eat shit without making a face, but can you produce the results when its most needed? =) so rock on scorpion coy!! finally something i am really proud of saying i was a part of.

posting is coming out on the 16th, i have a funny feeling tt ill become a dumbass rifleman, if tt happens ill try my best to downgrade to a clerk, all the brainwashing about singapore is great, love of the country, defending our homeland.. pulling us guys away for 2 yrs during our most fun chapter of our life, shaving us bald making us sing stupid army propaganda songs, screw you. will migrate the instant the opprtunity presents itself.

2006-05-15T18:44:00.000+08:00

hey guess wad.. i got to book out on a monday, well id rather not book out and i wud rather keep the reason behind it to myself. man this sucks so badly, army is not helping at all, past memories keep rushing back into my head. its that feeling of looking back at all those tomes i spent with her and smiling to myself, was really one of the best times i had, and the agoising pain of reality that strikes me that its all over cus of my stupidity. if *you are reading this, i am truely sorry if i hav hurt you in any way, and even thou i noe things wud nvr be the same agin, but i hope ur happy whereever you are, and i still miss u loads.

less than 3 weeks left, living it day by day activity by activity, army is sort of transforming me into this boring fella, of mayb i just get bored too easily nowadays, even wen going out with some people. somehow i know the answer deep down, but am i man enough to face up to it.. i really dont know

2006-05-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

gosh i haven posted in ages.. partly becuz i kinda forgot my own blog address, haha kinda stupid ya. well army has been ok so far. field camp being the most "difficult" its like all of us pratically didnt bathe for 7days, and i swear there was this crust of dirt encasing me. at least my section mates r cool, we pass day by day toking cock during trainings and dota during the night, heh.

and i realise army has like made us appreciate home and our loved ones so much, its like every1 is always looking 4ward to bookout day, and there is nth worse than being confined, spending another 2 days on a damn island filled with men who spew profanities as often as they blink their eyes. army life and language is simple, it can be simply be described by the most used adjetive or noun or wad not-fuck/fuked-up. cheers =)

o yea.. and i got silver for my ippt mock test.. haha, big improvement

2006-04-06T12:23:00.000+08:00

gosh, time really flies by, and tml will be my last day before i am gone. mixed feelings inside me, part of me is just not ready to let go of everything, to leave everyone behind, its just too sudden. tekong awaits and this feeling of helplessness causes a tinge of sadness to creep in, about what? about who? i cant say, but i am gonna miss everyone and everything, especially my way of life. remb to msg me while i am still in tekong k! or ill really turn gay surrounded by all those guys. well take care people!! promise i'll catch up with everyone after my hair falls out and i am out of confinement.. till then dont stop having fun and wrecking havock!! =)

RAAAAHHH!!!

2006-04-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

haha! i just had the craziest primary school runion chalet ever!! ian was so dam funny and we caused so much havock, just like old times eh? ahhh, memories memories.. we met up for pool 1st, decided to go to the bbq later, but they called and ask us to buy, charcoal, fire starter, paper plates.. i mean wtf, so what the hell did u fellas buy??

well all they had was a 5kg chicken and a tub of butter. so we told them to take the butter and shove it up the chicken's ass and then take the chicken and shove it up their ass. i realised thaT beer and instant noodles tastes horrible, too bad we didnt buy enough to get anyone drunk or high. broke a marble statue at costa sands sentosa, hahaha ian tried 2 carry it to the bbq pit, it fell and the head broke off, well it sure looked better in an artistic way, what a beautiful disaster. then you wei came with his frens in two custom made mitsubitshi evos.. omg his cars are so cool!! custom everything!! from the engine to the floorboards inside. then we had a street race, i was in you wei's car, the winning car! =D man was like sitting in a jet taking off, i suspect he has nitro in his car, bloody bugger..

stayed over in town after that, had to ditch the class beach outing, i was just too shagged after that, i waited till like 9am in town, but outing was at 11am, damn i cant endure that long, sorry guyz.

bowling today was alright, haha shang!! you owe me 2 bucks, i told you cathy would turn up!! whole chunk of skin came off my finger and i bowled like crap too. so much for bowling nx week with the ex cjc team.

seeing her again make me, ughh i dunno, maybe its time i should do something. i cant sleep, i miss her and all those times so damn much.

2006-03-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

i hav so many things to look forward to, man i just cant wait. cant wait for NS, went 2 make my new geeky specs today, i am gonna look so cool, next week i am gonna shave bald!! yea, gonna hav my full NS look complete, i am ready to leave everything behind for 2 years!! yea, no more looking back. bumped into ian today, he called shawn in NS and told him "hey man, my family and i would like to thank you for letting my family sleep peacefully at night knowing that you are keeping our country safe and sound" well he got an equally pleasing reply "FUCK YOU!!"

o yea check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cV9evBNn2QA&search=ninja
some cool fella jumping over buildings, ya hoo, crazy is good.

wow i realised my schedue is pretty packed for this week, and that is the way i want it it be, enjoying myself all the way till i enlist. thur i hav a ex HPPS 6f class of 99 reunion chalet, man that is gonna be great, cant wait for that, although i probably cant reconise half of the people turning up, but it will be a great start catching up all over again. then on fri my cjc klass is having a bitch outing, i mean beach outing also at sentosa, well i am not exactly jumping up and down with excitement for that one but since its also held at sentosa and i'll most probably be staying over, so why not drop by and hav a look at the pathetic losers? anyway i need to get my 4 bucks back from colin, haha the main reason why i am turning up, lol kidding, man hope they don't read this. haha, well if the beach thinghy sucks so badly ill just head back to the HPPS chalet =) three cheers for boring people! hip hip.. losers!! hip hip..losers!! hip hip.. hahahaha and on sat ron invited me for some bowling, yea, i am a sucker for bowling, something i cant resist, i am a bowling nut. i am probably gonna look like a fool dragging my gear all the way to the ally while every1 else uses house balls. ughh.. i hope the rest of the OG can make it, for once. and if on sat i feel uneasy or uncomfortable, well i am not going to say the reason, but if that happens ill head down to ben's place straightaway for his housewarming.

yea, plans plans plans and more back-up plans.. well this may seem very i dunno, "pang seh-ish" but i dont care. i hav realised there are 2 groups of people in my life, those you can count on and those who will ony share your joy but will nvr be there in times of need, so screw off. no more playing mr nice guy for me, i am done and finished pleasing others while i get crap in return.

awwww.. feeling pissed at what i said? oh my god! why is shaun being such a bitch? o man what is wrong with him?? well if you hav a problem with me right now, chances are i like you just as much =) cheers

2006-03-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Lazy Beekeeper.

Where You Lived: New Guinea.

How You Died: In Childbirth.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

now izznt this an interesting load of crap..jeez

2006-03-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

i hav 3 balls now instead of 2!! woo hoo!! eat that!! nope i didnt grow a tumour in between my legs. i just bought a new bowling ball!! ebonite V2!! woo hoo.. one part of my wish list is fulfilled =) cant wait to test it out tml. PINS!! watch out!! there is a new ball in the house!! *ROAR!!*

ok i hav been doing some thinking.. i got this idea off justice league, hah. but yea here goes, i was jus wondering what would it be like to live your dreams and i mean, really live it. imagine falling asleep and dreaming of something so wonderful and it all feels so real. but after all you are still asleep. whould you rather stay that way forever and ever? in that little fantasy world and never waking up to this place of imperfection? scary izznt it? but wudnt it be just great? and not waking up ever..while you can have everything that your heart has ever desired. wudnt it be pure bliss?

2006-03-25T04:44:00.000+08:00

Its frigging 4.45 am and i cant sleep. thoughts racing through my mind like bullets frm a machine gun. i have to question myself why am i still thinking about it, its really driving me mad, slowly but surely, bit by bit, day by day, and i bet you don't even know what you are doing to me. so much confusion, chaos in my mind, i cant think straight, when ever i hav a silent moment to myself your name keeps ringing out in the depths of my mind. i wanna get into NS asap, pls put me in asap, i wanna go in on the 7th, dun fuking make me wait till the 11th, because i cant stand it anymore. maybe being away for 2years from this world will make me forget . i hate you so badly for putting me through all this shit, yet you are like some addictive poison that i cant get enough of, i hate you so bad.

2006-03-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

can you believe it, less than 24 hours ago i was asking for and jamming session and we pulled it off!! jamming as in the studio, for your information, san!! haha.. room 3 is great, great big amps all over the place, great drumset, wonderful.. gotta go listen to some songs, gotta improve on some dtuff, hey but we had a great time jamming oasis wonderwall and stand by me, our 2 best songs we can pull off without much of a prob. we tried to do dun look back in anger, sam cudnt really reach the high notes, ben tried.. whou bad idea, i noe hes in choir and all but i had to duck for cover behind the drums. that was just rong, i choose life. haha gosh ben is so gonna shove his bass guitar up my ass when he sees this.

crazy gym session after that with the guyz.. after that i cudnt even hold a drink properly, hands were like shaking. had a nice chat while sipping on $1 bubble tea drinks, ahhh.. memories, so many happy memories we shared. along came very painful ones that slowly crept back into my head. i guess ill juz have to continue faking a smile, pretending everything's alright.

ben's house warming is on sat, but ron also invited me for his church thinghy, hav to wait and see whos gonna turn up before i decide which to go.. decisions decisions, deja vu

2006-03-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

i realised i have been blowing people off lately, put off 2 gym sessions with ron the the past 2 days, and today also, because i cudnt wake. jeremy stayed over you see.. and was up till like almost 6 playing dota. F***!!!!!! F***!!!!! F***!!!!!! jeremy was dropping F-bombs all over the place, and constantly reciting his swearing in speech. yup lots of assholes online i hav to agree.

called cmpd too, they said they hav no record of my enlistment date!!!!!! wth stupid brainless me, and i had to call and remind them. pls give me a nice thight slap the next time any of u fellas see me, my head will make some nice hollow sound with good resonance, jeez where did i put that dam brain of mine again? yea well, they said there were no more vacancies for the 7th april batch, so i may be posted in with the 11th april batch, can you believe that crap? bmt is like some giant hotel where people actually hav reservations to get screwed. woo hoo

i heard T35 is gonna have a beach outing really soon at sentosa, hah well if the "organiser" pulls it off and get at least 10 people to go, ill, ill.. haha well i doubt it will happen, freaking anti social hermits wudnt even go to town after school on a fri to save their mother's life. and mind you its CJC, a few stops from freaking town, losers. well anyway ill b at a ex-pri skool chalet the day before so suits me if it happens or not, if it does well ill drop by, if not then well, who cares =)

so many things i wanna do before i go in, i noe i hav already screwed up my future, so 2 fucking long years will gave me time for commisarating. i hate to look back, it hurts so bad, but everywhere i go there seems to be this giant rear view mirror reminding me of the past. lets go jamming again real soon fellas, it would really help take my find off some stuff.

and she says Maybe it's over
he say's there's plenty more fish in the sea
i say Don't go away
don't go away
please don't go away from me

2006-03-19T15:34:00.000+08:00

witnessed a fight yesterday at maxwell market, well it was more like some1 getting beaten up. it seems like 2 men were beating up this old fella and grabbing cash frm his pockets. seemed like loansharks trying to get back what their money. saw a bottle bread, not sure if it hit the old fellas head. he ran, but the 2 men gave chase, picked up a fork and stabbed him on his sholder or neck region. ouch, man thats gotta hurt. we should hav called the police, wonder what was i doing.

bowling rocks, i think i am finally getting the hang of my style, i can hit 180 to 200 plus quite consistantly if i put my mind to it. so proud of myself =) i am thinking of joining some competitions, mayb win some trophies if possible before my imprisonment, but i am juz feeling so lazy.

*yawns* bowling is tiring.. ill go take my afternoon nap now

2006-03-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

motion city soundtrack - feel like rain

And we feel like rain,
When the words all sound the same,
In the lifeless corners of this empty frame.

Though we feel let down,
by the same old autumn breathing.
Winter's curse is just around the bend.
With our hands all tied,
to the blades of their design.
We are armed and ready to commit this crime.

We love that game but we never play
'cause we will lose and we wanna stay
the way we are
the way we've been for far too long.

From the falsest smile,
to the fear of death is why
the pain reminds us that we're still alive.
With our hopes on hold,
and our lack of interest exposed,
all hands damage our determined eyes.
But the lines are drawn,
and the red begins to creep
its way from boredom toward apathy.

We love that game but we never play
'cause we will lose and we wanna stay
the way we are
the way we've been for far too long.

Say something, finally we're alone.
Alright is there anyone out there at all?
Say something finally we're alone.
How about a phone call now?

We love that game but we never play
'cause we will lose and we wanna stay
the way we are,
the way we've been for far too long.

We love that game but we never play
'cause we will lose and we wanna stay
the way we are

And we feel like rain,
when the words all sound the same.
As the curtain closes on another day

we love that game but we never play, cause we will lose and we wanna stay the way we've been for far too long.. the fear of loing something that you already have and cherish so dearly. some of us simply do not dare to take a step forward, and by the time we realise it, its just too late.

too damn late..

2006-03-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

*yawnz* i fell asleep while watching american idol. like what the hell??!! dam i am so tired, even thou i had to keep switching channels between starworld(AI) and cartoon network, man it sucks having 2 of your fav shows going on at the same time, it really sucks.

woke up 2dae and guess what? got a msg frm wei jing hus now in NS, this is wad his msg was word for word. "knn my bmt sergent is a chao mud" hahaha well thx bro for perking me up in the morning with a well deserved laugh. o man, those muds, well loved by all =) i shall stop here, i could go on for another 2 or 3 posts if i wanted to but i'll control myself before i get out of hand. and this screwed up govt comes knocking on my door. freedom of speech?? hello?? pathetic loser politicians. i mean its a blog after all, we say what we want to right? and they go around arresting people sho speak their mind. 2 words to describe them, losers... oops that is just 1 word, well wad difference does it make since we are on the topic of muds X)

figured it must be the gym session today that made me so shagged, jeez its been such a long time since i dragged my lazy ass and did some exercise. i think my fitness level really dropped alot, 28/30 gold for napha my god, this definatly izznt the type of standard i am supposed to show. wow realised i am pretty light too..

someone pleeeeeeese pleeeeese tell me how to get fat? anyone?

2006-03-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

bassist ben fell sick, so jamming 2dae was called off, ughh was so looking 4ward to it. well thats life izznt it, you order a cheese burger and u get beansprout brocolli salad instead, yuk. nth ever goes my way.. never, never ever. i am like this walking embodiment of bad freaking luck. life stinks and so does this stinking house.. and i mean it really stinks.

juz came hme frm watching big mama wad ever tt movie is called, argh u noe bout tt overloaded tub of nigger prancing around in a swimsuit. well funny crap. yea back to the stinking house. came home and i was like wad the hell, did a truck load of banglas die in here? well no such luck was juz my dad spraypainting smth, argh stinks so dam bad.. even in my room.ughh, need..need.. need to find 2 bottles of "hong you" or medicated oil to shove up my nosetrils.

have been doing some thinking lately, and do you know what sucks more than being in this state of mind that i am in, its knowing that I I I and I am the one who caused it. we all learn from our mistakes don't we. well i hope so, or did i just let something so special and beautiful slip away?

false hopes, let downs and empty promises

2006-03-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

why cant i forget?
why must it be so dam hard?
all those moments
that smile of yours
the look in your eyes
the touch of your hand
why cant i walk away?
still miss you like crazy
you're driving me crazy
i wanna forget
why cant i forget?

2006-03-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

today izznt one of those days i sleep my butt off till like 4pm and slack the whole day away, not that i am complaining anyway. well i travelled all the way to boon lay to meet up with the usual gang. went to NTU open house, admist the crowded, cramp and super hot enviroment, the day wasnt wasted. the "tour guide" had an excellent command of the english language. "fair-cow-tees" and the classic was "inside we also hav the discovering engineer, oops sorry i mean discover engineering.." ROFL, haha cudnt help myself bursting out in laughter, in my mind i was picturing some fella with a yellow helmet and boots and a magnifying glass well ya my perception of a "discoveing engineer" haha well yx laughed like for the nx 30mins or so.

frankly speaking after speaking to some pple at the UNI i dun think my chances of getting into NTU is very good, considering i hav screwed up grades. maybe i should just start working, hmm mayb at starbucks or some FNB place, i boil pretty good water =)

on the way out bumped into michelle, wow wad a surprise, some dumb question flew out of my mouth wen i saw her "heys! wad are you doing here?" hah like DUH, its an open house with the amazing discovering engineer. well shang was such a gentleman, "where the F***K is tt F***KING bus, the que is so F***KING long, what the F***K!!!!" screaming at the top of his voice. mich was like giving mi some funny look oso. kids ar nowadays, no bloody manners.. hahahaha

2006-03-10T15:43:00.000+08:00

i realise i am undergoing this slow but steady transformation into an owl.. i am sleeping later and later each day. like "yeaterday" i slept at 7, like what the hell? you pple will start to question, wow shaun there must be some really good porn on your computer that made u stay up all the way till 7, hah well no porn here, got all the porn i need watching tt tammy clip. ughh i mean ok i hav nth against wadever goes on inside the bedroom, but gosh i think tammy wasnt there the day god was handing out COMMON SENSE. i mean jeez grow a brain, y the hell would you record smth like tt on ur hand phone??!! mayb on a camcorder then transfer it on ur com or smth would b wiser but o well, u really cant blame her.

cant really think straight if ur brain is in the same place where you fart. woohoo

2006-03-09T18:06:00.000+08:00

yea i am back, has been ages since i hav blogged, but wad the heck.. i just feel like doing it again. life so far has been a blast, filled with shit-holes and shit-heads. wow wonder what ill do without those pple, mayb ill still hav my wallet with me for a start. they always say, bla bla its frm these situations where u actually learn 2b more careful and whatever, but screw tt, i think its a load of crap and may tt mofo who stole my wallet use my money and choke 2 death slowly on a 30cent sweet tt he or she buys, juz like what godwin said..

2005-06-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

yea ha, i hav finally shifted into the new place. its gonna b gr8 once its all done up =D i hope.
dun feel like blogging bout all the previous stuff, very lazy u see. hmmm still dun get how some pple think, jeez i really dunno wad 2 say.. so ya f off =)

2005-06-04T12:06:00.000+08:00

i am so dam tired, juz woke up ahha.. amazing. din stay home much the past few dayz, making it a point to leave my housae and study. tue went kap mac to study with tze, note to self, cant study there in the afternoon, jam packed with jc and poly pple. wed studied 10 hours at je library with syl, lol crazy rite. managed 2 finish up quite abit of biochem and maths, ya but spent quite alot of time toking oso. wed another tiring day, was 30 mins late for lessons in skool but hu cares, met up with syl after tt went hunting 4 my new wallet! =D so nice grey leather ripcurl. met up with ron and terry while she went 2 watch movie with her frens, yea gs leveled up!! haha hope i wun turn into an arcarde freak. played pool and had dinner with syl again, hmm toked about quite alot of interesting stuff which got mi thinking bout them fer the rest of the nite =T yest after maths lesson which i was late my 1/2 an hr again met up with ron for lunch and more GS!! then headed down 2 lido 2 meet the guyz and mr chin 2 watch madagascar.. lol imagine watching movie with form teacher, id rather focus on the movie which was so funny!! i like 2 move it move it, we like 2.. move it!! hahahaha. kk zn coming over 2 jam later and mayb going out 2 study at nite again. woo, i am shifting nx week!! the new house rocks! theres gonna b a pool table too! =D looking 4ward 2 inviting lots of pple for house warming!

2005-05-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

wow din blog 4 such a long time. lots of stuff happened lately, well not very significvant but i juz wanna put them down, lots of thots oso. had a jamming session with zn and his frens lately.. yay kinda fun, ill always love drumming. tot zn's fren abit of stuff oso, lol kinda funny wen she said she cudnt control her foot. hmm.. looking 4ward 2 our nx jamming session reel soon =D went back 2 bowling every sun, ron should b joining mi nx week haha gonna b interesting. hmm, now how do i put this, i hav actually realised there is much more 2 life than juz hanging on smth like i used 2 do in the past and if i get "let down" ill feel as thou my whole world is crashing. haha.. hav 2 thank a certain special some1 indirectly. thur i think mr chin and the guyz r gonna watch managascar, lol kinda wierd going out with form cher. i am gonna b a muggasaurus from now on, tml studying with tze at king albert park *yawns* 8am!! imagine wad time i hav 2 drag my sleepy arse up. wed should b studying with syl at je library, thur fri extra lessons in skool, sat should ba jamming and sun too.. hah at least my mind will b occupied fer the time being.

2005-05-17T12:38:00.000+08:00

jeez its been such a long time.. i still refuse 2 fix my com for my own reasons so i hav 2 resort 2 using my dam bro's com. in skool ytd mr chin made some of sigh a "I hav REFUSED to do my hw form" wth, its not like i haven tried ok, i juz hav not enuff time cus of all the bvowling trainings and stuff, so i cancelled "REFUSE" and put in "inadequate time" hah now wad do u think of tt? its like i hav a major AP prob huh, haha well bite mi then. i am not signing smth which i dun agree to, ne way i think mi having not enuff time is true. bowling comp ytd wassnt such a disaster as compared 2 fri, ave 160, so disappointed with myself..haiz skiped skool today to catch up on my tutortials. wed is the last day of comp, which marks the last day ill b in bowling, sad sad. pls plsssssssss at least let mi play to my fullest on the last day

2005-05-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

finally i feel tt all my training and hard work tt i hav put into bowling paid off. our team, nicola, nick, jee and mi joined NUS open, and guess wad? we won a trophy!! haha feeling so high, our 1st game team average was the highest, whooping the other jc's and even NUS and SP. yea yea! our 2nd game crashed, but 3rd game we caught up again, we dropped to 8th position din stand a chance in the finals argh, but nvm still won smth =D o ya! shang, sam, cathy and ying liang came down to cheer mi on! =D thx so much!! haiz but i had no choice, gotta rush down to marina for training even thou i din wan 2, dumb ass mr ho was being so dam unreasonable. felt so bad, wanted 2 go out with them after prize presentation. so sorry!! looking 4ward 2 nx week wen we're going newton 4 dinner, haha promised 2 treat them 2 a drink! hmm on 2nd thot i wun wan 2 type out wad ttscumbag mr ho did.. it juz spoils my day.

2005-04-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

i get tt funny feeling everytime i bumb into her at skool, argh, beautiful stranger =D

2005-04-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

was in a super bad mood the whole day. all becuz it started off on a bad note. went 2 skool body aching all over from napha, and tt should b an understatement cuz i cant even cough or sneeze without feeling pain. ne way its worth it, i worked so dam hard and i got wad i RIGHTFULLY deserve, a whooping 28/30 for napha. highest in klass. came into klass they were already toking bout sports day. then came the part which really got into mi, *some1* i shall not mention names here, said this "ok we hav bla bla bla events for the gals and bla bla bla shall take part.. but the guyz events, haiz as u noe all our klass guyz dam weak all cant make it" fuk would u care 2 repeat it again, fuking loser.. tt asshole actually thinks he is so FIT? well if doing 1 pull up more than mi and getting ur bloody arse owned by mi in ALL the other napha events makes u so dam "fit" as u deem then ur really more ignorant than i previously thought. ok if u can run faster than mi or ANY of the other guys 4 tt matter of fact and u come and run ur mouth bout how weak we r and not being able to compete then ill shut up, up dam it u run slower than a girl. i can beat u both in short and in long distance hands down dam it, but this is not about winning for mi. u can make fun of mi, u can insult mi, i cudnt careless, but dun u ever call mi weak wen ur fitness is not even worth half of mine. and the uniform group u were in cant even compare to what i hav gone thru in sec skool, so dun giv mi the impression tt ur all so strong. wads 1 more pull up than mi? still hav the cheek 2 say i won him by a mere 2 points 26 to 28.. well as i recalled correctly, some1 was struggling 2 cross the "silver" mark into gold. dam it 6 items, i completed 5 and i hav already got a gold and i dun hav 2 keep trying 2 hard 2 up my score by a mere few points 2 get into the "gold" category so tt i can fuel my ego and go running my mouth.

as the guyz told mi "wad for get angry with this type of pple, wen u noe ur already much better than him" hmmm.. yup true tts y i backed out of all sports carnival events, lets c how the "fit and strong" kid performs =) afterall i am weak rite?

2005-04-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

i got gold 4 napha, 28 points, hah, ok ya so tts 1 in ur face 4 all those who thot i cudnt make it. heh wads tt phrase tt feels so good to say? o ya.. SONG BO! i am undergoing a major attitude revamp and to all tt i hav offended for the past few weeks, is sorry the word i was about 2 say? guess not, hav a problem with mi? tts juz too bad, cry me a river, cuz i cudnt care less bout wad u think. o boy this is a whole new side of "shaun" tt we hav been seeing lately, no more tt fun loving laffing all so often fella huh. i am so dam tired and stressed out.

wonder if there is really a god.
this is gonna b fun.
weee.. i am such a loser

2005-04-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

ok i juz uploaded a new music video =D but i dunno if its my dumb com or the video, its so laggy! ok ill get it sorted out soon. o yea, tml going victors fer training then mayb going fer some outing thinghy. MAYBE only haha hav to see my mood. ne ways happy 18th birthday chern chieh!! argh and u and those other gals better stop teasing mi bout my screwed up short hair k!

2005-04-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

skipped mass PE today while doing the run we ran back into our own class and slacked in air conditioned comfort, heh. colin was like being so "balless" keep complaining, well if ur showing so much objection towards it, dun join us then, i din force any1 to do anything. he even told the others 2 put the blame on me if we get caught becuz i was the 1st 1 to open the klass door. o well, y get bothered by tt, if i noe hes such a person then let it be, i dun giv a damn, i dun care what others think bout mi anymore, like i said this is who i am, if u hav a problem then juz too bad, freaking live with it or get out of my face. i am not conforming for any1s sake, has nvr gotten mi anywhere frm my past "experiences"

bowling today was gr8, stayed back 2 bowl with ron and jy, so happi, average rose to 170 almost 180.. i am getting my form back!! slowly but surely. yea training will b stepped up cuz of the A-div nearing. sat training is at victors, 4 days a week training. bowling rocks my world!! ate dinner with nicola, nick, ron and jy.. had lots 2 chat bout, haha all the way until 10, shared cab back home. SPA and maths test tml, really no time to study at all, so my plan is juz 2 read thru spa tml morn, maths test either copi or fail. i seriously need to focus on my work but i simply hav no time! all the trainings and stuff. hopefully after A div ill catch up. sat the bowling pple having some sort of party and bbq at yeast coast Nad's house.. yea looking 4ward to tt, breath of fresh air instead of the boring old klass, bunch of lifeless nerds. bowling rocks!! haha =D

2005-04-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

dun feel like blogging but yet i find myself ending up typing this load of .... again. our timetable changed, yea skool now ends super early, mon 2, tue 2.30, wed 1.30, thur 4 and fri 1!! but the onli downside is tt both chem and bio pracs r on thur, BOREDOM!! ptm 2dae was nth special, the usual blabbering. i feel so tired and useless, kinda dread going back 2 skool..hate my fucked up class, so dam boring and dead. bunch of freaking lifeless nerds, xcept 4 a few and i mean a FEW pple, enuff 2 count with 1 hand, hate my haircut too. k i muz b in 1 of those i hate everything and i dun giv a damn moods. esp after losing some pple hu i can really tok 2, cheer up shaun cheer up, put all your troubles aside and do your maths tutorials..

2005-03-31T12:28:00.000+08:00

its been such a long time since i last updated, guess i hav been kinda busy and lazy to a certain extent heh.1stly i cut my hair so dam short i look like a freak, told her 2 TRIM!! do u noe wad the hell is TRIM?! and i end up like a GI ready to enlist in the US marines. went for bowling training yesterday and received lots of laffs, gr8, no need 2 remind mi of how stupid i look, i get that everytime i look in the mirror. skipped skool on wed, and yup 2dae oso. thur is mass pe dae, screw mass pe, bloody waste of time and it leaves mi zombie like for the rest of the super long day sleeping in lectures and feeling so hot sticky and tired in class. and i am more or less confirmed of a silver or a gold in napha. reached home kinda late yesterday, nad,grace,ben, he jia josh and mi went over 2 habour front after dinner 2 do abit of studying. din complete much ne way so i guess ill hav 2 try 2 spend the whole of today doing some catching up on my work. i wan to be more anti social, i wan to b more neardy!! how? i wan 2 be more tze wei and qy, haha no offence but ya wish i could juz sit myself down for at least 3 hrs studying without doing some other crap.i guess the 1st step would b rejecting the "movie outing" with the guyz later.. yea so proud of myself =D back 2 skool tml, wish i had a bag 2 cover my head, ne way theres bowling training 2 look 4ward to. if onli there was smth to make my hair grow faster..

2005-03-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging regularly, kinda lazy i guess. these few dayz quite busy, sun went 2 ben's church watch punk rock concert, dam nice!! then stayed over at josh's hse, nx morn met up with ron go fer training. haha after tt the team wreacked seoul garden at taka, had so much fun there, 2day was not different, after training went 2 cine eat sushi buffet, haha we ordered so much food!! or rather nicola did, at 1 point the table was filled with 10 oysters, 6 hand rolls, 4 steameggs, 10 salmon sashimis, 10 scallops, 2 miso soups, 4 cha sobas, 5 prawn sushis ok i cant remb the rest but we had 2 take turns 2 go toilet, sj made himself puke, nicola, ron and jy sat in the toilet until they cud eat more, haha u get wad i mean. i took 2 lumps of rice, the sort tt they use 4 sushi then scooped some wasabei on it then put it back on the conveyor belt, LOL every1 there was laffing wen they saw it! waited 2 play lan then finally gav up and we all walked 2 paradiz 2 play, haha i suked so badly at cs, din play fer years. but mi and ron trashed nicola and nick at gunbound, haha gay game. played some pool after tt, lol won sj by 7 balls!! can u believe it!! haha but ya he wanted a rematch and i lost 2 him by 1, bleah. tml going skool fer some chem remedial, ya i think i nid all the help i can get, seriously think i am screwed.

2005-03-10T22:32:00.001+08:00

i guess i hav been kinda taking out my frustration and pent up anger inside of mi and venting it on every1.. 2dae went late fer pe, mr tay shouted at us, hah din really care much, then he went on 2 teach his fuked up boring stuff on track, everything like repeated b4 and i was oso quite pissed with him so i started chatting and laffing with the guys purposly distract him. then he blew, shouted at mi asked mi 2 go teach, haha i juz smiled and laffed at him, its kinda interesting 2 c how much u can make the teacher go crazy juz by smiling wen he babbles at u, lol u noe he actually turned 1 full circle and squat on the floor, i juz smiled and said in a joking tone "sorry sorry" and laffed 2 myself. its really scary the way i acted 2dae, its like i am not affected 1 bit by teacher's scolding, instead i make then feel worse, gosh wad sort of person am i becoming, well this is me, its just too bad, wen i am fuked up i juz go round pissing others off as well and i cudnt care less. left early, went 2 cmpb, they juz wanted mi 2 go back and do some eye tests, i think i am gonna get 1 of those nerdy specs NS men wear. o yea the captain asked 1 of the NS fellas 2 take a pic of mi and him doing some eye tests, he says its gonna b fer some poster, haha interesting =D watched robots with the klass guyz, the movie was gr8! super nice and funny!! was laffing thru the entire thing. tml either going fer the concert in cj or going fer the talent nite in pj, zz still cant make up my mind. mayb ill go fer rokafellaskank in cj then head on down 2 pj 2 meet my ex og fer dinner hmm, not sure yet, ne wayz gonna hav a blast tml nite haha

2005-03-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

2005-03-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired, funny i always get tired on short days. slept in bio lec today, was half dead thruout PE and chem tutorial. i hav been telling myself i really must change my attitude 2wards studies, well at least i hav started 2 do my tutorials, well at least its a start rite? lessons and skool is such a bore, and the klass izznt making it any better, esp the guyz.. like all so dead, all so Anti, yyyy??!! comeon at least on weekends try 2 org some get2gethers or some outings, and by outings i mean they freaking turn up, not always mi and tw. haiz mayb i should b glad tt jc is onli 2 years and 1 has already passed, juz let mi grad happily and 4get they hav ever existed, honestly it kinda makes mi sick thinking bout it. went 2 safra early with nadia, grace and jy..haha in the cab i told grace tt 1 of her good frens is my cousin, she was like super shocked cuz i saw her last year wen i crashed MI and she din remb mi, keep going around telling every1 tt she has found a long lost fren 2dae say i changed alot since last year. bowled 3 games then finished up my maths. training was crap, totally crap, bowled like shit, new ball new drilling pitch, still haven got used 2 it, scored dropped madly. so depressed and disappointed with myself, really hope this is temporary until i get used 2 my new ball. fingernail was red with blood cuz i cut it 2 short and after bowling it was like super bloody. haha, interesting, all these injuries make mi wanna improve myself even more. had dinner with the team, had a really gr8 time, as usual laffing our hearts out =D u noe it really makes mi c how boring and dead my klass is and not that some of us r not trying 2 make it better, its juz tt no 1 wans 2 freaking bother, and i dare say the girlhav more LIFE than the guys. ok lets not start. tml i will b leaving early, go back cmpb, some NS checkup thinghy then go meet the guys fer a movie, supposedly every1 will turn up except ST, but i bet tml some pple will hav "something suddenly cropping up and cant make it" but juz as well, i dun giv a damn.

2005-03-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

com finally fixed.. haiz these few weeks hav been an emotional roller coaster, hmm had really good and bad times, but yea y look back? i got moi ipod mini, new bowling ball and bag, hmm lets c, i oso will get sone really screwed up results for my CT. totally din study, onli made an effort for bio and gp, so 2 hell with the rest. retain me for all i care, onli gives mi a better reason 2 leave cj, hate tt place more and more, partly becuz of some teachers and the big "head". went bowling training 2dae, 3rd time using my new ball with new drillings, i still cant get used 2 it..scores drop like mad, finger started bleeding really badly again. really brings back many bad memories frm last year, but i swear ill get used 2 the new ball and really train like mad 2 reach my former standard. really demoralising, watching my teamates hit high games so often and recalling tt i used 2 b laughing, smiling and giving out high 5s as often as receiving them. had dinner 2gether at the nearby coffee shop, really had a blast, laughing and joking with the team, well i guess its these small little things tt makes life bearable. shared cab with ron, ben and jy back home. ill juz stone infront of the com, feel like crap.

2005-01-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

com is spoilt, cant access my email acc cuz they say rong pw, wth.. i am juz hoping tt its my bro's com which i am using tt is at fault. freak, if i lost my msn account i really dunno wad 2 do. wun even bother 2 go online anymore unless its fer work.

2005-01-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

yays, og outing on fri was dam fun..ok b4 tt we had this dumb cca fair, i was slacking at the bowling booth. too lazy to walk around asking pple 2 join bowling, yea u get 2 meet the "bect teacher" in cjc, note the sarcasm. we recruited ALOT of pple like 60 over and most of them were gals, lol =D me and jac were sitting on the bench while sj, josh, ben and the spex pple were standing in front..lol ron had so many paint markings on his arm, so we decided 2 draw some on our arms as well, jac 1st started then she helped mi draw, cool haha bowling word on my arm with luminious green paint. went 2 LT fer this tok by mr ho aka tt asshole. tok about bowling schedue then he suddenly tok bout his dog la then corals la bla bla bla.. sj was dam pissed, well basically the whole bowling team was. wad an asshole..so old still haven die, pain in the neck.

took bus to town after tt 2 meet the og. syl and ying liang were going 2 marina themselves, so i waited fer sam..then still had 2 wait 4 cathy, she was doing smth with her hair at lucky plaza..by the time she was done and we reached marina it was already 7. we planned 2 meet at 5.30 lol. all squezzed into this van and went 2 eat steamboat..food not v nice i wud hav preferred the other 1 at superbowl. haha but all had a nice time chatting away until 11 plus..the gals were condeming the guys so much k! cathy asked my, "izzt so difficult to stay faithful?" =T haha wad sort of qn is tt.. k i gav quite a satisfactory ans as well.. heh =D went 2 je interchange with syl, by the time i reached home it was already 12. haha we decided to meet up again! the 5 of us! =D nx fri at cine, gonna watch movie and play pool, so i muz bring a jacket or smth, cuz ill b in skool-U. argh, crap but i hav bowling training on the same day!!! wad 2 do wad 2 do??!!! ok after much thinking (about 5 seconds) i decided 2 pon training, hoho brave of mi considering i hav already got hell frm tt MR assHO last time. hey but wads life without taking risks rite =) anyway chossing btw having fun with my ex OG and hearing tt asshole commanding us with his noe it all bowling techniques, "eh eh lift more lift more right anot right anot", grr dumb wrinkled ass toking a load of crap. ill juz tell my mom i sprained my finger on wed so fri cant bowl ask her rite letter. =T

aha i am bad =D and i am loving it!!

2005-01-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

yea.. now handphones can be used in cjc openly, we hav a new dri-fit pe shirt, got a bigger klass which is gonna hav aircon (according 2 mr chin)m hav gr8 bio and chem teachers. at least tts gonna make my life there a little more tolerable, juz wish tt my klass wud b abit more lively, its like so dead and boring ok! with an exception 2 a few pple. bumped into tt idiot bro paul on the way 2 klass.. 2pid shithead, caught mi fer my hair again. freak , he wans mi 2 comb down my hair.. NOW I AM FUCKING PISSED, WAD THE HELL IS RONG WITH THOSE IDIOT TEACHERS, STUPID OLD HAGS, U THINK OUR GENERATION STILL GELS OUR HAIR DOWN HEAVILY AND SIDE PART IZZIT?!! UR NOT FUKING LIVING IN THE TANG DYNASTY.. ITS FREAKING 2005. shit la 1st day of skool oso, step inside skool then bumped into tt tan jeck suan aka william hung.. "shaun leong how many times muz i remind u about ur hair!" idiot, i think hes jealous cuz he has a head like zanadine zedane.. THE POOR OLD MAN IS BALDING!! AWWWW.. poor creature, muz b jealous of us teens huh, o wow i can scratch my head without feeling my scalp =D then tt fat bro paul oso, i bet he cant even clip his own toe nails.. so fat and tall. he told mi if by end of this week i dun comb down my hair he will bring mi 2 the barber.. argh i really dunno wad 2 do. nvm ill try 2 avoid him, anyway how hard can it b hiding frm a big tall fat man wearing a dress. if i am unlucky he catches mi ill juz press it down. mr ong was nice enuff, he came into klass then said hey i like ur hair.. haha now tt should b the way rite?? haha ^^ dam tt bro paul.. fer a brother hes not very friendly and reasonable.

2005-01-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

weee.. i juz wanna summarise wad happened the past few dayz. ok i din get the job, dun ask y, its juz plain 2pid and screwed up. wad was more memorable was doing cip with sw, yea my 1st time going around with a big box asking fer donations along orchard. sw was holding a big bunch of colorful baloons so i shant grumble much. while walking 2 hmv it started raining so we both hid under the baloons we were carrying..lol very creative rite ^^ started asking pple fer $$ sw was asking in such a rough tone, its like "hiwuduliketomakeadonation?" all squeezed into1.. haha i seriously think i collected more ok!! but sw keeps denying it, bleah.. my succes rate is higher ok! haha, my tactic is muz c face de.. if they r in a rush or teenagers dun even bother asking. saw a gessian with a grp of her frens so we juz walked over and said "hey we r ex gessians help us out le" haha so chat abit with them and of cuz they donated! =D yup and cathy paid us a visit too..haha donated abit oso (erm we wudnt let them leave unless they donate) met jocylyn, hui min, feng hui tt group.. ya they donated very "generously" sw ask joyce donate then she like v mian qiang, then finally wen she dropped in the dollar she said "fuker" lol i was laffing like crazy..k dunno y i tt day abit mad, in the mood fer laffs =D we gave baloons 2 the small kids, some of them v cute!! haha feels good 2 play santa fer a few hrs ^^ collected around $50 fer charity. ate nydc after tt gave myself a nice treat, backed rice and mudpie..omg its 2 die for, dam nice!! rushed down 2 the hotel fer tt job shit.. manager scolds mi fer my hair again, gets grouped with a bunch of china fukers, dam it nvr tot i wud find chinese so irritating, ok not sg chinese but those r the real 1s frm mainland china, the way they do things r juz so irresponsible. wasted my time there, wasnt enjoyable at all. din c michelle oso, think she muz b working already. haha o ys 1 thing the uniform was white with chinese collar..haha my guess is rite! ^^

yesterday watched meet the fokers with peter and the usual pple.. dam funny movie! but not tt funny until tt mad man behind mi was screeching and hooting with laughter every 30seconds, now tts abit freaky. wanted 2 turn around and say eh izzit really tt funny meh? played abit of pool with them then rushed down 2 NUS guild hse in taxi fer wad jap buffet with family. k la nth fantastic..din noe nus was so packed tt day, oya new years eve rite. hj called halfway during dinner, ask mi go out fer some countdown later, oh wad the heck nth 2 do so juz follow him. went 2 boon lay, saw the cast of ren wo au you..haha got foam party and i got sprayed countless of times with ribbon and foam. countdown was nth special 2 mi, i dunno y, its like juz a big bunch of pple going crazy in a short span of 10seconds every year. met hj's fren used 2 b frm nygh, pjc 1st 3 mths oso, haha saw her b4 always hanging around cathy tt grp.. yup so we chat abit then suddenly she turn 2 mi and said "arnt u the 1 hu said i was fat?" haha crazy, no wasnt mi.. and i dun think shes fat at all lo. yup alright so tts bout it, went home at around 1 plus, juz dun hav tt new year spirit anymore.

peter, yx and zn came over today, played drums, well more like i teach them abit of the basics..haha kinda fun, played xbox, drumming, yup yup.. they left at around 1030. skool gonna start really soon..and tt really sucks. happy new year? wads so happy about it? nx yr fuking sucks, juz another year of misery and more crap to come. anywayz, my life already sucks and i luv crap so...BRING IT ON!!! haha yea =)

2004-12-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

wee.. i got past the job interview. going back tml fer training. got an sms frm hj tis afternoon, suddenly back out, say he sick..then found out frm yx tt he going back 2 skool later 2 help out 4 the cca orientation.. wth, ok 4getit i oso dun really noe wad 2 say bout wad he did. so nvm called yx and seno join mi fer the interview, if i 1 person go i wud rather not go at all. yup so we took a cab down.. i paid fer cab fare cuz i was the 1 hu called them down so felt abit bad la. got lost in tt big hotel cant find the boulavard office, called michelle twice haha so ps told her i was lost =X finally found it its somewhere inside the kitchen.. whou so big (the kitchen) walked 2 this really deserted part of the hotel. pretty wierd cuz its like wen u walk in u c this really grand and nice place with marble floor chandeliers hanging frm celing.. then u walk 2 the back "where it all happens" its pretty different. got the form frm the office then went in fer interview..they asked some easy qns like previous work experience and stuff, lol yx said tt he gav his cousin tution b4, whahahah dam funny. ya they said my hair 2 spikey -.- dam.. ok going back tml fer waiter training, michelle's gonna b there oso. b4 tt going 2 do the mad movement thinghy with sw at 2pm. haha wonder wad color the uniform is gonna b at shangrila, anywayz hav 2 take a photo of myself in it 2 show cathy -.- hope its like those all white with chinese collar.. cool =D

pls dun catch mi fer my hair tml.. curse tt manager 2 hav a big hangover frm over excessive drinking 2nite so he will b dam blur tml =P

2004-12-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

did cip 2dae at library..hah lucky tt dumb malay woman hu scolded us yesterday fer slacking wasnt there..mayb she died or smth. muahahha. but none the less we had 2 do shelving, crap i hate shelving so troublesome, sommore at childrens section!! so many catergories mus sort out..i hav a new found respect fer libarians, taKes a hell lot of patience and a really really healthy mind, body and diet 2 keep them frm going nutz, sorting books everyday -.- haha mi and hj being our usual slacker selves juz anyhow slot the books in, anyway children section rite? not so impt =P (according 2 hj) basement oso no reception, cant even sms out..zzz like doing CWO lidat..TORTURE!! usually we juz do paperwork, cut out stuff and can slack alot. haha ya then wen we were walking out of the basement this grp of guyz walked past us, then 1 of them said "eh ta de tou fa hen chio" toking bout mi -.- hahaha i was laffing 2 myself, wth. hj was like saying oi pple compliment u muz say thx rite =T argh wad the heck. count receipts after tt, ate chicken wings frm cafe while doing it..then left at 6.. we started at 3.30 but we rote in the form, 1.30 haha. hai 2dae's cip was super boring, we were oso really tired and din feel like doing anywork. at least yesterday's 1 was better hav yx..then we sneaked out for dinner with cat, then after tt all go teenage level chitchat, wen cat left then continue shelving. no choice i muz complete at least 30hrs at the library.. hopefully getting a job really soon too, work on weekends. but if cant cope with studies then ill quit. =T

actually since wen hav i ever bin able 2 cope with studies? haha

2004-12-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

ok feeling really refreshed now after my bath. juz came back frm trina's hse banner painting. supposed 2 meet them at sommerset mrt at 11am 2dae (monday). woke up at 930 this morn so tired so i tot 2myself y not juz sleep another 5mins.. so went back 2 slp, then wen i forced myself 2 wake up again it was already 11am!!! omg wth slept fer so long. actually quite remarkable, yesterday wen i was sleeping i heard my alram clock fall, the battery confirm came out cuz din hear it tick anymore, but i juz heck care haha dun expect mi 2 climb down the ladder and fix tt dumb thing. yup so had 2 rush all da way down 2 orchard took bus 7.. had lots of calls frm them keep rusing mi -.- eh come on k i dun live at tanglin. by the time i reached they were going 2 buy the paint and cloth already. walk over 2 somerset mrt 2 meet them.. then went 2 this funny place dunno where oso cuz i hav nvr bin there b4.. and u noe wad?? bus 7 goes there as well!!!! wth wasted my time. after much bargaining with this shop owner and with ben's consistent "uncle ni jin tian hen shuai" (uncle u 2dae very handsome) he finally gav us a cheeper price lol. went over 2 balastier to buy paint, headed back 2 orchard, met up with jac at coffee bean, she said she spent $100 within 1hr on some dress or smth lidat, gosh. mi and jac were the onli 2 pple wearing all black with jeans -.- big mistake, so hot, sweating like mad. dun wanna blog bout the banner painting, 2many things 2 say and i am feeling kinda lazy now haha. jac left after awhile, so good..while we all there suffering. josh got paint on his jeans hoho, hey but our banner turned out 2b very nice~!!! considering we sept the whole day there frm morn until 11pm. trina's mom was nice enuff 2 provide dinner fer us. b4 tt walked over 2 marks and spencer bought some stuff fer trina like running errands lidat but nvm since her hse at orchard. all took photos with the giant banner we painted and put out palm prints on it. then tt sj suddenly go put his footprint smack in the middle of the palmprints sommore the foot shape like distorted lidat lol and he was quite happi with it! then ben came up with a plan they all led sj away asking him dumb qns like accumpany them go toilet and stuff while mi and trina quickly painted his footprint black which matches the background. haha.. went out 2 7-11 buy drinks then while coming back sj wanted 2 play with the automatic gate, but got scolded by this indian lady "excuse mi i am trying 2 close the gate!" sj was really fuming mad, kept sulking tt 1st time he ever got scolded by an indian, lol dam funny..racist fella. on the way out he pressed her doorbell and ran off haha. tt indian lady argh..kk control i shouldnt say anything bad here =x josh and sj keep making fun of mi going fer the trials, shit them la 1st say wanna go 2gether now back out and laff at mi. fuk.. i can trash both ur asses anytime anywhere, treat mi as a bowling noob. juz becuz i kept quiet and laff along taking their insults and comments silently dosen mean i like it ok. if u think ur better than mi then lets juz bowl a game 1day and c whos better, if not then dun ever giv mi those type of comments, u dun even hav the balls 2giv it a shot and ur already crapping around with mi?i hav worked hard and trained hard dedicating so much time and effort 2 better myself and now i wanna c how close i get 2 achieving my personal goals and there u r scoffing at my efforts, fuking cowards. trials r on wed and thur, lets c how i fare, i am not gonna back out now, not ever. i noe i wun make it, but i juz wanna giv myself a chance 2 c how far will i go, and i bet u i will come out frm this trials stronger than before, ill get there 1 day. if i hav hit 2 200 and above games at victors i dun think doing it again on wed is anyprob, juz hav 2 build up my mental strength. i noe tt i am improving, since i first bowled and right now..improved alot and wad r these trials 2 mi? juz another stepping stone 2 getting better =) tml going back 2 gess they invited mi go back c their ROD, haiz how i miss tt np unit and all the good times i had there, but juz gotta accept the fact tt things can nvr b the same like before. same can b said bout people i guess,hai. after tt going ps fer drums then take bus down 2 cck, ST's bdae bbq, ya gonna b late again but this time cant help it, at least gonna turn up rite haha

2004-12-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

o man i am so tired. i spent the wole day at orchard 2dae. met up with josh at queens town mrt at around 1245. took bus down 2 orchard. signed up fer this MAD movement thinghy. u noe the pple with the bright orange shirts with the words "are you MAD?" printed behind, always around wheelock tt area. yup tts them =D waited fer them 2 get mi my shirt and name card after tt we signed up fer sercurity duty, so basically we had 2 wear tis vest which looks like those CWO pple with a black cap. dum ugly lo the attire.. and i din wan 2 wear the cap, cuz i look dumb in it. but i cant complain 2 much cuz we were so lucky k! there were quite alot of pple signing up fer sercurity then suddenly the leader came and said "sorry since 2dae is a weekend, peak period, we nid pple 2 do fund raising so besides the 2 new comers the rest hav 2 go do fund raishing" haha, lucky us! fund raising hav 2 go round asking pple 2 buy stuff =.= and i suck at tt sort of work. then this gal joined us, forgot her name, and frm dunno wad skool, cambera sec or smth lidat.. haha and becuz of her we dun nid 2 wear cap!! =D yup so 3 of us jus walk around the funfair in the hot sun. took a break at BK. then performance start hav 2 help 2 cordon of a certain area.. o ya hav LOTS AND LOTS of churh peeps there oso, haha i was standing behind this cell group, dam funny, they were taking turns 2 suk un the helium frm the balloons and sang mary had a little lamb! lol their voice became dam squeaky, lol so funny i cudnt help laffing behind oso. the performances were crap, all done by philipino churches, yuk basically its like 5 pple running around in a circle clapping 2 a dumb tune.. jeez. took an early dinner break, thx 2 this fella we met, real friendly fella ya lots of friendly pple there, made quite a few friends as well =) 2bad din c alvin leong there. yup so spent 4 over hrs walking round the funfair, we kept walking to and fro the rides listening 2 the different types of techno music they were blasing, woo hoo kinda catchy huh techno haha. 2bad we missed the passing parade outside. went home at 10pm, got 8hrs cip today, k la not so bad considering we slacked alot but i wud prefer library cip anytime! haha i wonder if cathy's church is involved in tt celebrate xmas in spore thinghy then nx time i go do cip at least not so bored. i gav uncle richard a call as well, told him i going fer the u noe wad.. he juz said no harm trying, haiz i dunno if i should back out? i really wanna go fer it but like no1 follow mi le,ill ask around, hope some1 can lend mi their time on wed or thur =(

2004-12-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

this morn quarreled with tt crazy father of mine, idiot keep asking mi 2 hurry up juz becuz he wands 2 play his fuked up golf, knn i was already rushing like mad. ya time fer his appointments and meeting cannot b late, wen i hav 2 rush down somewhere then take his own bloody sweet time, fuk la nx time id rather go myself, sommore offer 2 drive mi there, 2pid enuff 2 accept his offer. arrived at victors at around 1230.. then josh msg say theyn will b arriving at 2 plus, wth la.. arranged with him at 1st was 130, now hav 2 stone there fer more than 1 and a half hrs. after sitting there like a statue fer more than 30mins i cudnt stand watching pple bowl anymore, i muz get some of the action!! haha, yup so went 2 get a lane fer myself, oh ya and i gav my form 2 tt paul chua fella, there's no turning back now..=T bowled fer bout 1 hr alone, had 2 endure the pain frm my middle finger,the skin there is completly raw frm yesterday's bowling. so heck care juz tape it up and continure bowling.. after a while got used 2 the pain liaoz, then looked at my finger (juz checking) saw the tape had turned red, the blood seeped thru 3 layers of tape, whou. din feel like bowling anymore so juz watch sj and josh bowl after they came. 2dae's games were like shit anyway, cant even spin properly, freaking pain is so distracting!! i am not gonna go fer uncle richard's klass on sun, hope tt it heals by nx week. if by tue its not healed then.....i think i will withdraw my entry =( haiz, hope god is on my side as well. its like everytime i get so close 2 achieving smth, 2 being happy things juz go downhill all the way, screwed up huh. rushed down 2 JE library in a taxi after tt, joined hj fer cip. ya we burned lots of time jus slacking there taking hours 2 do a simple task they gave us which was cutting paper, haha and tt hj even kope the chocolates on the table =p

haiz, was a very big mistake going bowling 2dae, wth was i thinking.. sommore tt josh say if he get a 200 game then he will join mi, yala wadever. at 1st we all agreed 2 go into this 2gether rite? 2gether with trina.. but now onli left mi. i dun care if i make a fool out of myself there anymore, i dun care if i wasted my $, at least i can say, i hav gav it my all and tried my bez, failure is juz another stepping stone fer mi cuz i noe i will gain some valuable experience frm it =)

2004-12-17T01:03:00.000+08:00

2dae(thur) went bowling at victors, actually supposed 2b mi alvin and david, but alvin called so many pple!! =D ok i dun mind, the more the merrier!! =D i msg alvin told him i wud b late, in the end was the 1st 1 there -.- waited so long fer the pro shop 2 open so i can buy finger tape. bowling was gr8! i had 2 games over 200, one 201, one 214 haha my new high score !! =D so dam happi. while they wen 2 play pool mi david and kc stayed back 2 bowl sommore. i really mus train!! and if i can bowl like tt on tt day then i think iam freaking READY!! =D after tt went 2 jeremy's fren's churh party, it was held at a condo somorewhere near amirlty mrt, cool place. party held by city harvest church.. hmmm ok no offence 2 any1 but i think they r juz abit 2 "hardcore" for my liking i dun wanna elaborate any furthur but none the less i had a great time there, yup made some new frends. haha then during the "after-party" part we were jus sitting outside by the pool chatting away. samantha and her sis joined us, she asked mi if i was chi.. lol i was thinking "omg dun tell mi i am starting 2 look like a malay or smth" =x haha so i asked her, then wad do u think i look like?. she said i look like abc, american born chinese -.- erm, haha oso dunno wad 2 say then another fella saw mi bringing my bowling ball and said i look like those pro bowler -.- diao, i dun think so lo. we had this gift exchange session, all of us bought a box of chocolates frm this ntuc at yishun mrt on da way.. i got a nice nike basketball shirt!! =D thx 2 whoever tt fella was =) haha and yx got a fluffy purple pillow... all still hungry after tt party thingy so we went 2 macs at amirity mrt, eat then cho back home. reached home saw this letter on my table.. wondered hu wud send mi anything =T haha its frm chern chieh!! X mas card!! hey thx lots k!! =D really nice, hand made sommore.. argh darn now muz go get her a card as well =x lol kk kidding i sound so cheap.. but yea thx alot yea!! =D really liked it

2004-12-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

juz finish swimming, zz so tired.. haha i wasted the entire day drumming and swimming. wait!! not forgetting blasting all the new bowling 4 soup songs i down loaded!! yea yea!! bowling for soup rocks my world!!! =D

2004-12-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

heyz heyz! i am back frm chalet!!

day01: met up with shang at his hse, his mom gave us a lift dowbn 2 tiong baru plaza. met up with cheewin, charmine, david and ben..haha we intended 2 arrive late at the chalet, cuz my guess was tt they wud b there toking bout the usual stuff *yawnz* BORING!! took a very very very long bus ride down to yeast coast laffing and chatting all the way on the bus. walked quite a long way thru the park, super super long 2b exact. i din noe meiyi was having her bbq at the park oso din c her oso, but anywayz happi bdea yea. grabbed a burger wen we walked past macs, then finally found the chalet..ya tru enuff they were toking bout the same old boring stuff, zzz. played daidee while they start fire, din wan 2 help out this time cuz was feeling kinda lazy =x while waiting fer food 2 cook mi and sw ttok a walk down the park, haha wanted 2 go "sight seeing" food was not bad, but abit 2 little, they wanted 2 go biking after tt i din feel like it so mi and a few others juz sat at the beach chatting away. decided 2 take a cab down 2 orchard, wanted 2 catch a midnight movie and eat as well ahha. 5 of us illegally squeezed into a taxi, ate food court at cine..bought tix fer the 230am national treasure show. movie was gr8, nice nice!! =D enjoyed at loads. took cab back 2 chalet, on the way the taxi driver was telling us ghost stories haha so interesting, yup and we shared quite a few more wen we arrived back at the chalet. i din feel like sleeping tt nite so we made a few "movie clips" usuing sw's hp as the camera, hahhaha dam dam funny!! haha will laff 2 myself everytime i think bout it. muz ask sw 2 send mi our masterpieces online. o ya i colgate dan while he was asleep, lol k evil rite,hahaha his legs and face full of it, he woke up halfway and complained tt his pillow felt wet LOL (cuz of the toothpaste) then yx colgate shang, hahaha. =T lol okok while i was taking a nap on the floor some1 colgate mi oso, haha so juz woke up and bathe..

day02: after bath walked the long long long route out 2 macs fer breakfast with zn and jeremy, it was so cooling and the moring air felt so gr8! haha saw a jellyfish in the drain on da way. after breakfast we stoned arnd in the bowling ally, the rest met up with us soon after. ya and they stared toking bout the usual stuff tt gets mi kinda sick, yup sick with boredom zzz so juz sit there listen 2 them debate. played lan in the afternoon cuz we really hav nth 2 do, after tt went 2 play pool, hah at least tt was kinda enjoyable. all went back chalet after dinner, sat on the bed playing murderer and indian poker lol. all so tired tt we slept at 8pm tt dumb daniel keep squeezing mi 2 the corner of the bed, so uncomfortable and abit fed up oso, so woke up was already 11plus. still feeling hungry so asked a few of them walk out for supper haha. after supper the few of us juz sat around the lower bed telling "stories" haha k basically each of us only can say 4 words then 1 person come up with a theme and we hav 2 make up this story going around in a circle, ahha was kinda funny all the crap we said. all went 2 slp gradually 1 by 1 start knocking out, left mi the onli person no space 2 slp, wa lau!!!!!!! no choice head on the lower bed legs on the upper bed, so dam uncomfortable. 2 make matters worse my inflatable pillow got hole!!! LEAKING AIR!! grrr lau hong!! dam it, muz keep blowing it up finally gav up ask zn 4 a pillow. i no blanket sommore, woke up in the middle of the night FREEZING!! i was like basocally hugging my knees trying 2 keep warm. while every1 was asleep. so i got up took alvin's spare sleeping bag (thankgod) and slept on the floor, din noe where did my brans go, should hav juz turned off tt dam aircon.

day03: jeremy turned off the dam "freezer unit" in the morn and opened the door, he was freezing as well, haha at least i had my sweater on or sure freeze 2 death there, worse than the ice age. checked out at around 1030..walked for miles all the way along the ECP, dunno y they din wanna take the shuttle bus. on the way TTS was walking in front then we made a turn 2 the underpass but he continued walking we tried calling him but he was listening 2 music, by the time he looked back he had already walked quite far frm us, then he tot he purposly left him behind then he juz walk off, come on lo we were all freaking standing there for like 10 mins calling his name hoping tt he wud come 2 his senses and turn back 2 join us.dunno wads his prob, we even called his hp but he hung up, jeremy finally lost it and we left without him, if he wans 2 come then come, dun1 then its his prob. and as if we din wait 4 him..dunno hows he gonna get back, finding another bus stop along the ecp is not very easy. we all ate prata at a kabangan coffee shop.. mmm real nice. went 2 steve's hse after tt, cus he lived juz opposite the coffee shop, they played ps2 while i surfed the net. all left at around 530pm took train frm kembangan all the way 2 clementi, jeez such a long rite, but ok la not so bad cuz hav alot of pple 2 crap around with on the train haha.

overall the chalet was not bad, ok i enjoyed my 1st 1 much more..if only *some pple* wudnt tok bout those stuff so often haha and if only *some pple* cud learn how 2 share the bed and not hog it fer 2 nights in a row. and my air pillow got hole!! =( how how? haiz everytime i go fer camps i wud bring it, now dunno how. haha so shagged and tired, din feel like meeting jac tml, she say go town can pass her maths solution, zzz so tired, at least muz rest 1 day ma. haiz tt day i hav been waiting fer is approaching, i still hav time 2 back out and not make a fool out of myself, haiz nvm i hav made up my mind, wads life without taking risks rite? shaun shaun, how many times can u actually get a chance so close, so dam close 2 realising ur dreams?? =) gonna ask fer some advice b4 i actually decide on it

2004-12-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

haiz, i feel so crappy and depressed, mayb i am juz thinking 2 much, tts the freaking prob with mi, if i juz sit here ill, haiz nvm.. hope i can juz put myself at rest and enjoy the chalet, (doubt so anyway). i am preparing 4 smth really impt to mi u can say i hav been wishing and waiting all my life for that moment, i hope i can go thru with it, i wun say wad izzit rt now but.. haiz 4getit. dun wanna tell many pple bout it, will they laff? will they mock? wad will they think? will i b able 2 take it? 2 hell with all of that, i wanna get myself mentally prepared 4 tt day, hope i dun stumble *sigh*

i am gonna b fine as soon as i get ur picture right out of my mind, i wanna feel the way u make mi feel wen i'am with u..

2004-12-09T11:50:00.001+08:00

ok gonna blog bout chalet, yea it was so fun!! ok wen i first arrived it was kinda pathetic, i was like 1 hr late then went into the rm, saw jac, sj, josh, terry sitting on the bed playing dai dee then jian hui came soon after, haha it seemed abit miserable rite. went cycling wen sharon came, they let terry lead the way then halfway all suddenly turn back and terry juz contined 2 cycle, lol. during bbq almost all the j2s came back, and abel looked so different, dyed hair and all..sat in the rm watching tv while some of them toked 2 tt stupid old man (u noe hu) dunno y he come oso, cuz i sure as hell din invite him. trina cudnt stay, she say her mom dun allow, then jac oso changed her mind last min cuz like onli 5 guyz and she the onli gal, so she went home. haiz, but nvm we wrecked so much havok the 5 of us!! hahamaking 2pid jokes bout some inconsiderate pple living nx door, then walked a very very long way out like 2am in the morn for supper at a 24hrs kopishop, ahha memorable huh. i tried 2 psyco them all not 2 slp fer 1 night but they dun 1, -.- jeez no fun, haha nvm anyway nx day wake up all go swim then trina org some "mental training" at downtowneast bowling ally. apprantly we all; juz bowled with house ball, shorts, barefoot in the bowling shoes (which felt sick) haha i cudnt spin with tt dumb hse ball so juz throw straight, all made ourselves look like idiots, haha i even went up 2 the lane and use 2 hands 2 roll the ball. iyo terry, hai he like bowl the same with hse ball or with his own gear.. muz improve k!! i forgot wad we did on 2nd day afternoon.. o ya!! all went back 2 the rm and had afternoon nap!! lol, halfway i wokeup then realised jac came back, ya so we juz sit on the bed chit chat until the res woke up. dinner was on trina, she brought 2 pizzas for us =/ not filling, all like hungry ghosts and i forgot hu was it but tt fella took 3 slices!! eat so fast. ya so naturally all had 2 go out eat again. went 2 costa sands shopping centre at pasir ris.. we all shared 1 huge earthquake *yum* and thx 2 sj's treat haha. and we walked out 2 tt 24hrs place again, yup so basically tts it. nx day had 2 check out, all was 2 shagged 2 even tok 2 each other sit at bus pickup point like dead pple juz stoning away. i went home, bathed then slept fer awhile then had 2 rush down 2 ps fer drum lesson. sommore nx day (wed) oso hav bwoling training at victors early in the morn *yawn ywan* 1030 so early, i woke up at 9 then drag tt dumb bulky bomb on wheels all the way 2 marina. luky tt crap mrt officer din check my bag again. was 45mins late. did cip with hj after my training, ya in skool jersey tt disgusting light blu shirt. kinda fun, haha first time doing cip in library but deinatly not my last!! =D the paper work was easy but shelving the books, zzz boring..anywayz tis tjc gal came over ask us if we wud wan 2 join some sort of volunteer thinghy in the libary so like for events we go down help out maintain some order (haha i asked her so we r security gards?) then can also deejay on some days, hmm yup kinda interesting so we joined. haha o ya we wanted 2 grab a snack then tt lady say can bring in and eat as long as we dun ditrty the place, then i asked her.. "i was thinking of bringing in durain u noe" haha then she laff and told mi if i did tt she will call my skool -.- yup yup so tts about it, i hav 2 prepare for another chalet coming soon! =D hope it will b juz as fun as the 1st 1 i went. heh

and wth, my blogger all the words r in chi!!! wth

2004-12-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

i am back frm chalet~!! =D will update all the stuff tt we did and happened some other day k. now too tired, gonna slp soon *yawnz

2004-12-05T02:30:00.000+08:00

wth, wasted all my time, tried 2 change skin but it cudnt work, waste ALL my time!!!!! dam it. k nvm ill figure out how 2 change it 1 of these days.
swam in the morn then went out with hj they all, ahah as usual a really fun outing laffing and joking all the way, we ate "zhi cha" in orchard! haha weird huh yup at far east top floor, so crowded so finally found a table at 1 of the corner stalls, food like shit service was even worse, bleah we swore nvr 2 go back there agian. then went swensons, on the way saw a live band haha woohoo the drummer is gr8!! but he 2 kan jiong playhalfway drop drumsticks, lol ya i oso hav tt problem =X outside swensons we saw TAUFIK BATISAN hahahahaha we were so evil, keep making fun of him lol i shant saw those jokes here, lol bad bad, but funny, hahahha, saw a man singing 2 himself outside swensons lol jason pointed him out and told us "eh look the nxt singapore idol" hahahahaha i was laffing like mad kk control control. we all shared an earthquake yummy, so nice then the baby at the nx table kept looking at us, omg so cute~!! haha k so we sat at swensons talking until 11plus almost 12 then headed down 2 borders listen 2 some cds, but hav 2 leave soon cuz din wanna miss the last bus.

i will b going 2 bed soon then waking up go bowling then i am off 2 chalet!! =D cant wait cant wait. i am gonna arrive late, trina msged say meet 3pm at costa sands lobby but i think after bowling ill go home then start packing haha so last min rite, ya but tts mi always last min, doubt ill reach by 3, but hu cares i reach the mrt then giv them a call going by myself is juz as fine =)

if u wan mi 2 wait ill wait 4 u, if u tell mi 2 stay ill stay right thru if u, dun wanna say anything at all, i am happy wondering...~~

2004-12-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

din slp well last night, curled up on the floor like a prawn.. they din wan 2 eat breakfast so i stayed at home let them walk out themselves haha. about 2 leave my hse 2 do cip wen ym msg, cant go.. argh =( so 4getit i din noe wad 2 do so i tot y not try swimming, anyway the weather so hot, wad i excellent decision!! =D its so fun ok la well i juz found it so peaceful while swimming swam lap after lap after lap, for 3 over hrs, haha in between juz lie on my back and suntan while catching my breath, so satisfying. halfway i kicked on some dumb pipe cut my leg, haha hopped out of the water then go wipe up the blood with towl, haha k abit gross but i cudnt find any toilet paper in tt 2pid toilet. ya so continued swimming after tt. i cudnt get myself 2 stop, so in the end swore 2 myself swim last 10 laps then walk 2 playground 2 do pull ups. lol now i noe y *certain pple* luv swimming so much, i think i am getting addicted 2 it oso. but haiz shifting away soon, gonna miss the pool, argh i din treasure it last time =( swam until now whole body aching like mad, u noe like those old men hopw they feel wen its about 2 rain? haha i cant even do 1 pull up after tt, soso tired, take off shirt oso muz endure. ya i juz had 2 get the sups out of my head, its really driving mi nuts, so after i bathed i took a bus down 2 cj, hai dunno wad got into mi i was like in cold sweat, really! all the signs tt i was gonna fail, like i juz missed my bus, rain clouds, cutting my leg and lots of other stuff tt has been happening. 4getit, time 2 face the truth weather i like it or not..i was seriouly brerathing dam fast wen i was walking towards the notice board sweaty palms and all. wen down the list until i reached T35, cybill foo, shaun leong!!!!! omg i really cudnt believe it i stared it at for so long, checking over and over again, i was pratically push up position stype in front of the board 2 hands propping mi up.. haha then it set it, slowly can smile, can feel the heavy weight lifted frm my chest 1st time i really felt happy in 2mths =) and i owe it all to the pple who helped mi thru this i really cudnt hav done it without u guyz =D so dam grateful 2hav frens like u pple ^^ thx esp to hj,tw,qy took so much time out of their daily lives 2 help mi. of cuz there r alot more pple hu helped mi not onli in studies but motivated mi and made mi reagian hope in myself =) i am smiling, still smiling, still smiling ;) thx loads!!

2004-12-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

yea swimming yesterday was fun fun fun!! 2bad cat cudnt join us, haha 1st time going 2 jurong swimming complex, love the slide!! so cool, sliding down so high and so fast!! we did all sorts of crazy stuff like racing with each other against the strong current in the lazy river, pretending 2 drown and kept shouting shark shark in the tide pool, lol and we saw some1 hu looked so much like cat!! haha funny funny!! spent alot of time in the jacuzzi pool juz slacking there, but was harrassed by those irritating malays, keep jumping and splashing water, dam y not they go play soccer or smth lidat, irritating bunch of pple. din noe where 2 go nx so went down 2 clementi central with them, juz walking like idiots but not bad la quite fun ^^ they stayed over at my hse, ben joined us at around 10plus, zzz we waited 4 him at the mrt 4 so long and he was onli at yew tee -.- and smth dam funny happened 2 ym in the toilet!! hahhahaha, ahem ok i shant say it here. actually wanted 2 watch midnight movie, they suggested yishun cuz there can 1 person buy tix then the res can sneak in heh quite thrilling huh, but too far =( met up with my mom she brought us 2 see our NEW HOUSE!! =D ok la not bad not bad, its a hdb, but 2 units joined into 1, it has like 6 rooms, but we gonna do some major revamp of the place, hopefully it will b cool ^^ and its 10mins walk frm the mrt and has a direct bus 2 orchard, nice nice. but the whole area gonna hav upgarding wad new park lift on every floor, ya u noe the usual..onli completed by mid nx yr =T anywayz the sleepover was so fun, played xbox, watched tv, tot them abit of drums, com and chit chat whole night..actually wanted 2 walk out 2 the food centre at 2am but they 2 lazy, haha oso din wan 2 swim at 2am. and they kope my water bed lo!! i slept on the floor while kel slept behind the drumset, while 2 pigs comfortably in my bed >=( yea so fun so fun, i really feel so much betta =) o btw congrats ben!! he got promoted, mi le??? how bout mi?? i dunno cuz i din go skool check, i seriously dun hav a good feeling bout it, but i dun giv a dam anymore i dun care bout anything anymore it juz dosen pay off hai.. nvm nvm cool down cool down.. gonna meet ym later at jurong point, we r gonna do cip at the libary, nth 2 do so do cip lor.. haha

no u dunno wads its like, nth feels alrite, u dunno wad its like 2b like mi, 2b hurt 2 feel lost, 2b left out in the dark, 2b kicked wen ur down, 2b like u've been pushed around, 2b on the edge of breaking down but no1s there 2 save u, no u dun noe wad its like...welcome 2 my life

2004-12-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

2dae went victors early in the morn 4 bowling training, boring stuff it was a sparing test,. spared almost every single pin formation they gav mi, then josh ask mi bowl with him later but in the end say he wanna go swimming so din bowl. mi jaclyn, josh,sj ate lunch 2gether then wnet home, hmm was thinking should hav taken up jacs suggestion 2 go orchard nydc and eat, i juz dun wanna go home.

singapore idol taufik won, hmm dunno 2b happi or sad, i used 2 root for sly but 2dae say 1 of his performances erm, ok ok, i guess taufik oso deserved 2 win la, anywayz whole of sp voting 4 him, so wad 2 do.. going swimming later, quite reluctant but aywayz it beats staying at home ill juz stress myself out. i juz wanna 4get and put aside all the crap that has been going on and juz make it all right again. i am starting 2 wonder is there really an almighty god above watching over all of us?? cus right now it seems like the ans is no, ya giv thanks, ya pray, ya hav faith, wad hav i done rong? its like my prayers r falling onto deaf ears, ya i noe blame blame blame we r always finding some1 2 blame, how can we blame the creator of life? u noe i am getting so sick and tired of this, better off alone.

hope swimming will b fun, if i am lucky i might juz drown or smth lidat.

2004-11-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

has been such a long time since i last updated, i guess i din hav the mood, ok ill say it. i am feeling like fuk, like shit, like crap, Y?? nah i wun say it here. and its not becuz of the bowling finals either, hai thou i was so disappointed, cud hav won smth, anywayz congrats 2 trina 4 getting top fer the gals!! u rock! still waiting for tt fuked up letter frm cjc. comeon already i juz wanna noe how i did so i can carry on with my god dammed life!! hai wish things could go back to how they used 2 be, thinking bout it makes mi crazy all over inside, ya tt is the reason y i am feeling like shit. i found some way to take my mind off those stuff.. gonna blast my com music real loud and juz drum to wadever i can play.

hate my life

2004-11-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

ya i noe i said i wun b going online anymore but i dun give a damn, tis is onli the 2nd time i hav logged on, and i juz feel like blogging. hav been studing real hard for my maths, well not really hard but ok i am trying my best, i realised i hav wasted 1 whole freaking yr, i dunno so much bout maths!! haiz really hope i can pass this sup papers. yea and i wud like 2 really really really thank these pple frm the bottom of my heart, if i hav 1 =T, hong jin, tze wei, qing you.. the pple hu really helped mi wen i really tot i was gonna die, they took time out 2 teach tis idiot here maths even bother coming out during weekends and at nite, thank you guyz so much!! its so comforting 2 noe tt u still hav frens tt u can count on wen ur feeling like shit. haiz i really hope i can pass, or all their efforts will b wasted. chem paper on the 19th, i haven started 1 bit, planning 2 start tml or latest monday, maths on 22th i hav sort of covered briefly quite alot. but i think i am still gonna meet up with them 2 clarify some other stuff. so much activities going on around mi, i hav tis bbq on wed(2days b4 chem) i am prob gonna skip bowling training cuz they coming my hse in the morn.. then gonna hav 2 more chalets and mayb a sentosa sleepover after sup papers. i dunno if i wud hav the heart 2 go and enjoy all those stuff if i fail.. and i doubt tt u wud even care 1 bit. haiz back 2 maths..

2004-11-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

zzz =( tis is gonna be my last time online, until i get the sups out of my way, i swear!!

had pw oral presentation, haha was kinda funny, joked alot with the examiners, i really cant help it, yup every1 had a good time wen it came 2 our group and our crazy ways of presenting =D wanted 2 go home and sleep cuz i was juz so so tired, on the way out met jac, she asked mi go with her 2 victors hav a look at the development team pple, so went 2 orchard then took mrt frm there. the res joined us soon after tt. we had 2 sort of select the pple 2 enter skool team. let them bowl 3 games and we observe then giv a grade.. omg if there was an F ill giv it 2 many k!! and i am not being evil, most of them buy a ball and bag and shoes and expected 2b selected, as wad ron said, i cudnt agree more. how 2 go for A div lidat!! we onli hav 1 strong guys team, and gals we onli hav 2 so far, zz hopless.

2dae had chi a lvl, well as usual i din giv a damn bout it, come on lo its chinese and i hate it. so i went in unprepared. all complained tt it was a difficult paper, but to me its just like any other chi paper---> SURE FAIL!!! lol. after paper met up with jaclyn, ron and josh, took taxi down 2 victors 2 bowl, yap i am an offical bowling freak 2gether with my fellow bowling buddies! haha bowled alot of games 2dae, saw rachel.. ron and josh were like "omg i cant concentrate, she so chio =.=" lol until i told them "eh i noe her le" then went over 2 say hi, then they kept asking mi 2 ask her 4 her number -.- jeez wan mi 2 ask fer the type of toothpaste she uses as well? haha bowl until so satisfied, 15 over games..2dae saw alot of spinners, at 1st was so pressured by them, in the end i was the 1 pressuring them!! muhahahaha. a group of pple took chairs thejn sit behind our lanes 2 watch us =T there was this game, i had 6 strikes!! haha =D =D =D last game josh wanted 2 hav a friendly competition, ron, josh and mi haha should hav said loser treat drinks as josh wud usually say, cuz i totally owned!! =PpPp 180 was my score, ron got 155, josh got 88.. he say his ball got prob, erm ya ok........i noe i am improving i damn well noe it!! haha cant wait fer wed, we r gonna bowl next to the development team pple, hoho. and not 2 mention jian hui's new mazda rocks!! haha he was so kind 2 fetch us home after bowling, haiz i juz wish he wud b able 2 stay on in cjc. ya and lastly 2 all taking O lvls out there and esp my beztest buddy, all the best!!!!!!! haha

i wanna pass the 2pid sups, pls let mi pass it.....

2004-10-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

has been such a long time since ive bothered 2 update. i dun c the point anyway, i am sick of this life, it totally sucks..now its holidays and i cant even freaking enojoy it, projects, a lvl chi, hol homework and worst of all sup papers, fuk i am sick of all this shit so dam sick and tired of it. i hav no confidence of passing either.. ok i am making a promise 2 myself, next week onwards i am gonna b a NERD!! a lifless antisocial nerd i am gonna be limin for 2 whole weeks, gnna study my ass off, i wan 2 get 2 j2 i dun wan 2 blow this 2nd chance i hav. hope i can do it, kinda hard 4 mi not 2 go out with frens, but sacrifices hav 2 be made i guess =)

went 2 skool late 2dae, i hav been going 2 skool late since tue, but i dun care, i dun wanna attend chinese, its of no use to me. saw mr ho 2dae arm in a cast, prob broke it, haha serves him right tt shit bowling cher likes 2 throw his weight around huh, well wad goes around cums arond, so take that!!! and i noe there will be tons of people laffing along with mi too the onli unfortunate thing is tt he broke his arm instead of his neck.

daniel has been asking mi wierd qns everytime i walk past him 2dae, kept asking wads my relationship with denise leong, wth hus tt?? adn he says i am related 2 her.. i still dunno wads going on, cant b a long lost cousin rite, leong, common name oso. had PW presentation 2dae, was kinda fun..our whole group was laffing at zk, the way he speaks is so funny!! haha entertaining. came 2 my group, as far as i noe we were not bad, except tt daphne was so nervous, had 2 tell her 2 relax halfway oso. came 2 my turn, as usual i din prepare anything so i juz talked alot of bullshit, mad the klass laff abit ^^ then tt mr chua rote the comments for mi, say i not looking at audience, look at laptop 2 much.... WTH, come on ok if i dun look at the laptop how am i going 2 change the slides?! and i swear wen i talk i will always look at the audience i onli glanced at the laptop 2 see wad point i had 2 talk about. crap, should hav another teacher cum in 2 evaluate us, the actual OP is coming real soon, and i wad areally appreciate useful comments, not the rubbish he rote.dont get mi rong but mr chua's a really nice person, kind hearted caring and all, but he is just not cut out to be a teacher, his teaching methods are just, just not right.

wanted 2 skip skool tml but hav 2 hand in report card, i am not even gonna look at it, gonna chuck it 2 my mom ask her 2 sign and throw it back into my bag. muz wear tie tml oso, cuz wad channel i coming and they dun wan the skool to hav a bad name, stupid bunch of hypocrites, always trying 2 be something we are not. and they say those who are absent will hav disciplinary action taken against them, ya i cudnt care less, this place is starting 2 remind mi of henry park the place which i hated so much. onli reason i am turning up tml is tt i hav nth better to do.

heard simple plan's new album is released, i am gonna get it!! =D

2004-10-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

i failed, wads new wads new being the hopless fuker i am, wad more can i ask 4. i think i am not gonne make it to j2, all the mugging tt i did fer os all seems so meaningless now. i think i am not going to make it past next week, ive got some reflection 2 do, if i should carry on, or end it right here right now, suddenly this world seems so beautiful...so beautiful

2004-10-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

ok i learnt my lesson, i am not gonna type on tt 2pid screwed up blogger later my internet cock up then all my stuff gone.

i went fer conoeing yesterday, not 2 bad not 2 bad, wasnt as shitty as i expected. b4 the trip i borrowed sunblock frm cc, haha lucky she brought or i wud b burnt and und up like tw, nose red red shiney shiney, like rudouph ^^ shared canoe with tw had quite alot of fun, toking rubbish and joking all the way, ya and its so wierd our canoe keeps going left, dunno y. ok actually i noe y, i asked tw 2 canoe 1st i juz sit there than my turn, hoho tw is the culpurit!!! grr no wonder muz keep turing left like in a zig zap pattern. ya we passed a ferry, i dunno wad got into mi i was getting abit crazy and i was thinking exam is over and lets juz let it all out and b crazy.....sooooooo i waved 2 the tourists while they were passing, some looked at us then i gave them the "finger" *ahem* u noe tt finger __ =p okok sry sry abit the valgur, haha but we all had a good laff looking at their expressions. the stupid crazy things i do to entertain myself, jeez

stopped over at gay beach 4 lunch, its called tt cuz tts where gays frequent, yes i am serious. they played monkey with cybill's water bottle in the sea, then she lost her watch (dropped in the sea) then tt tw tried 2 dive in with his life vest =.= hahahahaha, i was laffing like mad, i mean like how far can u go underwater with a lifevest -.-"

2dae i skipped the hike, dumb hike at bukit timeal hill, pathetic man, i might as well throw some grass on my stairs and climb up. reached skool and i realised tt we had 2 hrs 2 spare b4 the games, so went 2 eat roti prata at thomson. nice nice, they got all sorts of crazy pratas there, i got the usual egg, ming got ice cream prata, qw got paper prate, ml got chesse prata @_@ wat the.. ok interesting, ya but quite nice ent around tasing each of their pratas. eat until so bloted, went back skool, din hav enuff guyz 4 bball so we joined netball instead.

got trashed 1st game, 2nd game abit better but still lost, 3rd game we were so good (comparing with the previous 2 games). thx 2 jia ying's tips 2 force out the other GS and GK, haha mi and wendy gard until so tight they onli managed 2 score 1, we scored 1 oso, cant blame, cuz we dun hav pple hu can shoot.. its juz 3 guys forced 2 play and 4 gals hu wud rather go home representing our klass. the gals formed a bball team, they won the 1st game, but lost the 2nd.. grr the refree sucks!! dunno how 2 call foul, the other klass gal wacked the ball out of yh's hand!! sommore grab her!! wth, a teacher should referee instead, 2pid cat high idiot. haiz i am super super shagged, had 2 control not throwing up halfway in the 1st game, running like mad juz after lunch, but anyway endured thru all 3 games. had fun thou =D

no time 2 go home and bathe, juz changed 2 pe shirt and headed down 2 ps fer drums. this progressive rock and heavy metal beats r getting quite hard 2 play. nvm nvm gonna practice later, i am gonna master those!!!

tml going out with "ex 4j" pple not anot but still better than nth, then sun going out with pjc og, cant wait cant wait..juz praying reeel hard tt the results tt i get back tml is enuff 2 get mi 2 nx yr. *fingers crozed*

love songs suck and fairy tales arnt true, and happy ending hollywood is not fer mi and u. so add it up, and break it down, its not that hard 2 figure out, ur crazy and i am crazy about youuuu!! yea yea!! =D

2004-10-15T03:32:00.000+08:00

wrote a whole lot juz now, all my feelings and stuff, 1 whole lot ok.. then fuked up internet screws up and everything is gone, so dun waste my time, dam thing.

2004-10-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

time 2 4get bout the screwed up promos.. hu cares if i screwed it up hu cares if i fail the shit out of maths, it fact tt it is over and i dun care!! haha, its time 2 enjoy cuz the results r out of my control right now!! =D went 2 buy bowling 4 soup album after my drum lesson 2day, woo hoo it rocks~!!!

guess i dun really noe wad i was thinking, wud hav tot we wud float, but we kept sinking in.things were so good, but u were in luv with some other guy, but i make u cry, u noe i dun mean to, i am juz an asshole sometimes... lalala =)

2004-10-08T18:13:00.000+08:00

failed my maths really badly, most likely will get retained, fuk i hate myself

2004-09-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

rotten day!! wad a crazy rotten day!! decided not 2 go skool go join ngee an poly open.. uncle richard msg mi yesterday ask mi join brian, doubles team. so impromtu! but nvm bowling rulez.. so made my way down there.. onli 2 find out tt brian already got partner, sat there alone like an idiot, felt like a fish out of water k! tot mayb hav sum hope wen yeen sin told mi tt she trying 2 call ivan cum down join mi. and derek was doing all he cud 2 find some1 4 mi, haiz but 2 no avail. ended up bowling alone with a 130 pins handicap each game as my "partner" tts so pathetic and unfair ok!!! i wanted 2 protest but i figured its ultimatly my fault. realised how stupid i was wen rachel asked mi y i no partner and i should hav called some1 down cuz we wait 4 so long 4 the comp 2 start. argh, 1st thot is abel, mayb he will rush down 2 bowl with mi, but i tot, dun trouble pple, so 4get it. lucky i was bowling nx 2 rachel and derek, or i wud feel even worse. ok wen i tot things cud not go further south, it juz did.. after my 1st game my freking hand started bleeding again.. y everytime i go fer competitions my freking hand muz bleed!! agrgh sickening sickening, anyways i juz used my tape as a bandage, wrap around my thumb area *ouch* but was pretty satisfied with myself, i bowled a 202 game despite my freking hand. so long din bowl, took mi awhile 2 realise i had 2 change my line, crap man, tml dun think i can go 4 bowling klass AGAIN.. dumb hand, cure it 2 the depths of hell, y muz i hav sweaty palms, ya hu cares if its very common among bowlers, but i hate it!! and i juz wish i had thicker skin, then it wun bleed so often and esp wen i go fer competitions!! cursed hand, cant even type an sms or hold a pen without feeling pain now, hope tis thing heals soon.

2004-09-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

time 2 live up 2 wad i say.. yup i din tok 2 tt arse 4 the entire day.. and yup i guess without mi toking 2 him tt guy is pretty "frenless" onli zhi kai seems 2 respond wen he toks 2 him. i hav a hunch tt the res of the klass dosen really like him as well. and i din realise tt the incident tt day spread so fast! omg i think i onli told like 2 or 3 pple and 2dae pratically every1 noes about it, mayb tts y "extra tension" is added 2 the whole situation. haha funny i feel good in a sort of an evil way by outkasting tt guy lidat but as i said, i hav had enuff of his crap and judging frm the way he has treated so many of my classmates i think its not worth it 2 befriend such a person. after skool went with wendy,maylyn,sharadha,rachel 2 eat pasta mania.. actually i was really thinking of going home 2 sleep, was so so so shagged but they insisted tt i cum =.= 4 gals and mi the onli guy, u can also sympathise with mi ritez? during the whole outing i was the main topic!! disturbing mi non stop ok! argh was even forced 2 take neo prints with them, hmm wonder wads it with our klass girls and neoprint machines, some wierd and special relationship they hav.. all cant resist neo prints. $1.60 down the drain.. my wallet is filling up with these pesky neo prints.. i hav SO MANY! haha well ive got 2 admit sum r really nice but abit scary 2 c so many pics in my wallet huh. they wanted 2 go hmv heeren nx b4 heading 2 skool fer night study, i figured i should probably leave.. so told them i veli tired and BORED haha so took train back home, crazy klass girls and all the crap things they say, driving mi nuts still wan mi go night study with them.. erm mayb i study at home better. haiz speaking bout studies.. argh nvm it wud onli make mi feel worse typing it all out. got josh's msg.. asking mi 2 join their team, we r gonna enter sum bowling competition after promos!! yea yea!! well at least smth 2 look 4ward 2.. hope can win smth back we sending in 2 teams, trina, jac, josh, jh, ron and mi.. haven exactly worked out which 3 of us wud b 2gether but hu cares!! bowling rocks!! =D thou i wud enjoy it much much much better if i didnt retain *sigh* =(

2004-09-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

bored bored i am so bored!! usually my sundays wud start with uncle richard's bowling klass. but 2day its cancelled =( damn, i was so looking 4ward 2 it. already 2 weeks din bowl cuz i injured myself at chevrons. i mizz bowling soooo much!! but funny it seems like i juz cant bowl alone.. everytime i try tt i seem 2 get all the sucky scores. was hoping 2 go out study later in the afternoon with st, but tt oso din work out. anywayz forced myself 2 stare at my notes 4 the whole day, well actually not very long but still abiiit satisfying. i am already behind schedue, according 2 wad i "planned" i should finish chem by 2day, but 2day i am juz starting!! i am so screwed 4 promos. wenever i try studying at home i either end up switching on my com or playing my drumset. argh cant stand it anymore, i think tml i will try not 2 go home early. this exam stress is really getting into mi, but the scary thing is tt i am not doing anything about it! how crazy can i be. ya and i made up my mind 2 boycott an asshole frm my klass, i hav given it some really serious consideration and tot and i really think tt ur juz not worth my time. its not worth it 2 hav a so called "fren" like u.. i hav had enuff shit thrown at mi and i dun nid anymore frm u. time 4 mi 2 get back 2 my studies, getting quite sick of all this i hav been going thru..

2004-09-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

my day got off on a really bad start 2dae.. k i hav 2 wake up extra early juz becuz my asshole of a brother has 2 b in skool early everyday 2 report 2 the DM 4 being late so many time. freak so went downstairs tt other idiot starting nagging his freaking head off.. well i juz blasted my headphone music real loud (had 2 endure) then provoked him abit "huh? u stopped nagging already? y dun carry on?" ya then turned on my music again.. cud hear some mumbling coming frm him, but who cares i cant hear anything.. well at least it feels good to noe tt his bullshit and crap is not gonna affect mi anymore and he can continue rambling on 4 all i care.

2dae is the wrap up session 4 religion.. so we all get 2 wrap ourselves up in toilet paper.. k lame. all the catholics had 2 go 2 lt2, actually i really felt like skipping it, cuz i hav NEVER enjoyed any religion classes so far. but i was thinking if i go back 2 class tt mr chua will nag again.. ask mi 2 go then sommore if hes really persistant i hav 2 enter the lt with so many pple already inside.. so ps. so 4getit might as well attend the mass.i persuaded colin 2 attend with mi, haha so at least hav some1 2 tok 2. so many pple turned up was abit surprised cuz usually the religion class onli a few.

the session was like a normal mass..i forgot all the procedures le, see 1 and a 1/2 yr din go churh everything all 4got. and aimee was sitting nx 2 mi, she oso kept telling mi she oso dunno wad 2 do and sommore she is not used 2 having mass in english.. erm ya wadever tt means. actually being away frm church 4 so long has changed mi quite abit.. i am starting 2 feel a little uncomfortable wen they sing all those praises 4 the lord jesus and reciting all the responsaral phrases.. its like i dunno, feels like smth like propaganda? like forcing us 2 hav this image of the lord. i cant believe i am saying this cuz i am a babtised christian, but ya it scares mi as well, tt i am having such thoughts. i cant really describe the feeling, its so weired and uncomfortable seeing all thse going on and participating in it.. but on the other hand it kinda feels good having the feeling of going 2 church again.. haiz mayb my faith is growing weaker i guess. then colin was abit unhappy cuz he cud not receive the bread thinghy haha he kept arguing with aimee tt hes a christian.. hmm dunno. ya mrs tan was also abit shocked 2 c mi "shaun ur a catholic?!" haha ya DUH i am so holy! lol ya rite.. blur mrs tan din even remb seeing mi go 4 tt orientation camp. ya and tt aimee did smth. wen receiving the host, muz wait 4 tt fella 2 put in ur palms then take say amen and eat.. she go and take it straight frm tt guy's hands and said thx.. hahahaha she keep insisting tt its so ps.. well every1 has 1 of those moments. they gav out forms regarding the jc1 retreat.. dunno if i should go, cuz 1stly not many frens going and 2ndly retreat is pray pray pray pray.. hmm right now i dun really feel like going lo.

had lunch at macs with tw, i tried their new prawn wrappers.. not bad not bad, but they wrap the prawns until look abit like mini baseball bats haha. on the way home was toking bout promos, which i think i seriously will fail and get retained, haiz haiz i wish i could really do smth bout my maths.. and not 2 mention chem both hopeless cases. if i retain i really dunno wad am i gonna do.. ill prob giv up hope, i dun feel like going poly either..........starting 2 wonder wud things be different if i was in acjc?

2004-09-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

ha.. finally tis dumb thing can work. haiz i am really screwed 4 promos.. i really dun think i can pass lo, then i hav 2 make tt so difficult decision of going poly or retaining.. but retaining is so ps lo and going 2 poly wud waste ALOT of time. dam this sucks so much, wish i was dead.

2004-09-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

I AM BAAAAAAAACK!!!! haha woo hoo its gud 2 b back.. dumb com crashed so muz send 4 repair.. now all moi songs ALL gone.. haiz so sad so sad... so can any kind soul pls send mi any songs they hav if u c mi on msn? pls pls pls..

k i dun think i wanna blog bout the previous dayz 1stly too much has been happening and 2ndly i am 2 lazy haha.. k la blog bout chers day yesterday. went back 2 cjc 4 the chers day programme.. actually i was so tempted 2 skip lo, the onli reason i went 2 skool was becuz they all ask mi 2 rep my class 4 intercless v-ball match.. i so good meh? haiz anywayz we lost, not fair, our team onli had 1 guy (me) the other team onli 1 gal all guyz.. haiz wth man. but chers day celebration in the hall was SUPER!! dam nice all the bands and stuff, made my trip 2 skool tt day worthwhile. after tt rushed back 2 gess, shared cab with jia ying, o ya tt reminds mi haven pay her back 4 the cab fare lol ps. but waste my time and $$ lo.. all the chers just left 4 lunch haiz, i even bought a rose 4 miss lee -.- haiz so disappointed, planted the rose in the flower pot outside office. went 2 town with over 20 ex gessians.. haha we almost flooded jacks place at orchard. but ok la it was gr8 being able 2 go out with all those old frens and hav fun like we used 2 =D met so many pple on the way lo.. like ron, ronald (but he dao mi, grr) ya met cathy oso at cine.. i still dun belive tt i appeared in her church video, remb tt time outside heeren they ask film mi answering wad is fame? ya tt pai seh moment was shown in her church!! arghh.. i need a paper bag 4 a face frm now on. went 4 drums the join them after tt chit chat abit then went home.. zzz

tis morn went 2 victors 2 bowl with josh, jh, sj.. at 1st no mood 2 bowl cuz i was still dam sleepy. but after lunch wa play until so power.. haha i bowled a 202 game!! woo personal best so happi.. if onli it was A-division.. sure can go into masters. but nvm nvm i muz maintain tis standard. k i think i better start workng hard if i wan 2 make it 2 j2.

y cant i breathe wenever i think about u.. y cant i speak wenever i tok about u...

2004-08-16T18:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday bowling training wasnt so bad, but ivan say i got alot of stuff 2 change, like my release muz let the ball naturally fall and swing, but veli difficult 2 change la i am so used 2 my old style.. haiz gonna take some weeks 2 change tt.

took train down 2 tiong baru 2 meet st, redhill liao he msg say hes gonna b bout 1/2 hr late, argh as usual so figured y not juz walk about in tb plaza, gosh tt place has really changed alot. finally he arrived decided 2 eat lunch at airport so took a long train journey down. i ate lamb chops which were super salty, was abit jealous of st's fish and chips haha looks nicer than mine. k then found a table at bk, settled down there and started studying.. after a few hours saw a young old man ahha (cus hes not tt old but still quite old.. hmm) wad caught our attention was tt he was wearing bright green boxers!! omg and he was pushing a airport trolly full of plastic bags.. he came 2 bk stop in front of our table.. i tot "o dam, dun tell mi hes gonna sit nx 2 us" lucky he shove the sofa nx 2 us and sat there, at tt point in time quyite alot of pple were already staring at him. he bought a cup of coffee then took out a big loaf of bread and a tub of kaya and started eating. he later got up 2 ask 4 tomato kechup.. i was jk 2 st bout him going 2 spread it on his bread.. ahhahahaa but he really did!! i muz b psycic of smth lol. weired fella.

studied all the way till 8.. reafding tt 57 page notes argh, lucky st bought sweets so 2 prevent mi frm dying of overstudying. went 2 tampines mall 4 dinner.. st wanted 2 eat at airport again but no thx, had enuff salty lamp chop 4 1 day. took 65 with st, at 1st he told mi there sure hav bus 4 mi, in the end dun hav -.- and i tot 65 goes 2 tb mrt.. in the end oso dun hav.. 30 over stops till douby ghaught. ya on the way st was rather unhappi bout the bunch of malay gals sitting in front of us, he said they were toking bout us, wonder how he noes, anywayz oso not bothered much. stood outside parkmall like and idiot 4 quite some time watching taxis juz ignoring mi.. haiz so frustrated and tired, last last last resort, called my mom 2 giv mi a ride home.. haha felt so good, well aiya hard 2 describe. watched the sg vs china badminton match.. sg won.. wow shock shock shock.. thou i was rooting 4 china cuz tt fella really play until so super!! haah, well ya tts tt

2004-08-14T16:21:00.001+08:00

tis flu is really getting to mi, 4 days already and counting, i think i juz spread it 2 my mom 2, saw her sniffign away tis morn. anywayzi went 2 bed real early yesterdaynite, tis morn oso woke up early, eat finish then decided 2 read thru some notes, i think i hav been slacking 2 much, i muz really get a hold of myself and get down 2 work. tml going back 2 uncle richard's bowling klass, juz smsed shaun asked if the bowling ball i gave him is ready 4 collection then hopefully he cud join mi 4 bowling tml, but dunno if he received the msg anot, still no reply, hai my hp is screwed. seems like there r 2 sides 2 everything huh, like this flu has really caused mi a hell lot of discomfort and suffering, but i guess i had the oppertunity 2 reflect on some things, or rather myself. haiz i wonder if wad i am doing now is really the right thing? or am i juz 2 overwhelmed by the feeling i hav 4 tt person..cuz its like tearing my life into 2. mayb its juz time 2 let go huh and get on with life, ya easier said than done. dam even now i am finding it so hard 2 type this entry. a fren of mine used 2 tell mi if u really want something, nvr ever let it slip away frm you, but dosen tt sound so possessive? but i am not tt type of person, but i was thinking mayb tts the prob with mi all along, so afraid 2 lose some1, but yet does little about it. y do pple fall in love? difficult 2 comprehend ya.. its like causing so much hurt and pain juz 4 a moment of bliss? seems like wen i put it down in words it seems so senseless and meaningless, but in reality izznt tt all we live 4? and yet we all get so hurt in the process. gonna spend the res of the day trying 2 catch up with my work, tml hopefully will find a nice quiet place 2 go and do some self reflection or mayb smth tt wud keep myself occupied and not hinking bout those stuff, haiz.

2004-08-14T16:21:00.000+08:00

2004-08-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

2dae is really i crap dae 4 mi, made a mistake going 2 skool lo, felt so sleepy and drowsy like on drugs.. at 1st tot it was the flu medcine i took in the morn, but i was feeling like tt 4 the whole dae le, arghh, wonder y i din juz die. vollyball was fun, lol colin and wendy forced 2 partner each other, hahaha so funny (in a weird way) 2 arch enemies working 2gether, interesting lol. after tt all the guys (5 of us) stayed back 2 vs the gals.. erm i think we won la haha, not becuz we were good, its becuz we all anyhow hit oso in -.-. skipped maths lec, actually wanted 2 do up my chem file, in the end sit there half stone half sleep, dam dunno y feel so dead 2dae. slept in maths tutorial, cant help it really. chem tutorial mrs tan say she wans all the files in by today, incomplete file pple hav 2 stay back 4 3consecutive days.. my file dunno how many countless pieces din finish, so fedup juz hand in, heck care u actually think i wud stay back even 1 day, i am fedup of all these bullshit teachers r throwing at us, sick yesterday stay at hme rest she expect mi 2 finish up all the leftover work, unreasonable. at least 2dae miss smith was nice 2 mi, hmm surprise surprise, i tot she hated my guts. after skool followed colin 2 pick up his 2nd cue stick, rich fella then went down 2 upper bukit timah 2 hav a look at the klass pple practicing 4 audition. at 1st i felt so bad lo tt place really brings back bad memories, felt abit ps oso, dunno y. but after awhile cant resist jump back on the drums and played, ahah felt quite good i wud say.. but still sticking 2 moi decision on backing out frm the grp. tw oso leaving, i think its becuz like everytime we all go book studio prac we spend most of the time fooling arnd.. haiz hope everything works out fine in the end.. i dun feel like blogging anymore starting 2 feel abit weird

2004-08-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

haha ok 1stly congrats 2 moi beztest buddy on her chi A1!! pro pro and 2 think tt u were so nervous bout the results keep scaring urself onli lol. hai if only my chi can get an A1 (dream on) them can get 10 pts liaoz then can go acjc or sajc haiz haiz *slap myself* wake up!! yea guess everything happens 4 a reason huh

2dae went 2 skool feeling dam sick real bad flu acheing neck and slight fever.. kept blowing my nose lo i think it was abit irritating 4 those pple sitting near mi in the lt. haha but the interesting thing was i realised about 20mins later alot and i mean ALOT of pple were also sneezing and sniffing, wa super spreader, haha evil evil, haiz 2 all those hu caught flu becuz of mi sorry kaay, wish i cud end my misery there and then too. cudnt concentrate in all my lessons sommore feeling so crappy, started 2 wonder y am i even in skool 2dae, decided 2 go home after bio test, actually wanted 2 go hme straight away but i tot dam i still stay up till 1am tis morn 2 mug 4 the test and let it go 2 waste, no way!

the test was crazy, like all the qns all not related 2 the notes, argh, wth, aniway tried my bez put down alot of rubbish ans.. haha our back row like all copying frm 1 another eh. ran back 2 klass after test, realised mrs tan was already in klass althou onli 1 or 2 pple there.. but lucky she was busy marking some of her stuff.. crawled 2 my table chuck everything into my bag and ran out, ahha no time 2 even zip. went 2 office, haha juz nice ming ming was there with mr chua, she signing out oso, so save mi the trouble of hunting 4 him. he say ask mi call my mom, ya ok no prob call with hp then pass it over 2 him, jeez my mom really toks alot, all he needs is juz premission 2 go home lo, yak yak yak like UN peace confrence lidat. ya so in the end went home and sleep. haiz 2 daes liao lo tis dumb flu, and the worst ting is there is no cure 4 the common cold! great great juz great.. cant go 4 my 8pm drum lesson oso. tml they going studio 2 prac 4 chers dae concert, asked mi along, still dunno if i wan 2 go oso, cuz i suk

2004-08-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

aiya wanted 2 upload a pic onto tis entry but i dunno how, hai.. wanted 2 p[aste a pic of my messy room ahha but nvm until i figure out how 2 upload, tis blog will b pictureless. hey my new blogskin not bad hor? haha i like it soooooo much! haha cuz skool sux!! yea yea and so does this dumb sore throat and flu i hav. actually wanted 2 sleep in but dumb nose keep sniffing.. argh, whish i cud juz chop it off. spent the afternoon reading on chem equi with a box of tissues nx 2 mi. doubt i can pass the test tml oso, no mcq oso die die. skool sux!!

2004-08-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

i think i hav 2 change blogskin reel soon, got smth rong with tis 1, arghh.

2dae wemt 2 clementi mrt 2 meet syl at 1 plus.. took train down 2 lido, haha she told mi some really dam farny lame jokes, lol cant wait 2 share with the pple at cjc. o ya on the train din noe amos was behind us, he suddenly call mi and say "i am behind u" -.- bo liao.. haha anywayz he went 4 his SA waterpolo training. we cudnt get the 230 tix 4 i-robot at lido i think we arrived 2 late, so anywayz we walked over 2 cine.. met up with sam on the way. haha walk into cine tis fella came up 2 us and gav us tis voucher, 2 free admissions 2 i-robot.. WHOU WHOU, ahha we were super happi, kept thanking him.. but wen i read the fine print, it said not valid on week ends.. haiz, so nvm gav tt 2 syl. cine oso no tix, so went over 2 suntec bought the 5pm tix. ate pizza hut..2pid sam kept rusing mi cuz he wanted 2 play his time crisis 3 so badly.

o ya they had tis live performance at suntec 2dae.. the drummer is so kool man!! and the guitarist is so pro oso.. wish i cud drum as well as him.. *dream dream* wen we bought the tix i try 2 use tt voucher, hoping the lady blur blur say can use.. but haiz she not tt blur.. ahha went inisde cinema waited 4 the dumb ads 2 end. ahha lucky tt small gal beside mi din make any noise, i was so worried tt she wud cry or smth then spoil our movie totally..bleah. haha but i-robot was such a gr8 gr8 movie, so nice~!!!

after movie was about 7, sam had some dinner with his family, we oso decided not 2 watch the fireworks at esplanade, cus 2 crowded and syl nid 2 go hme oso..so dam packed lo, cant even stretch out my hand and had 2 walk at an agonising pace. bumped into ron at city link, he was with his church frens i guess, wearing red and holding lots of s'pore flags, haha whou suddenly some1 so patriotic ar.. sam left 4 esplanade mi and syl had 2 squeeze past the sea of pple 2 the mrt..haiz singaporeans, fireworks can make then so crazy as if its raining $$ liadt. on mrt syl was asking bout if i was shifting hse them muz invite them 2 hse warming, ya tt reminds mi, i dun even noe wen i shirting and where lo.. dunno if should ask parents hmm. reached home at 8.. took us more than 1/2 hr 2 squeeze thru tt crowd jeez.

tue tw and gang invited mi 2 go 2 bdae party..then wendy msg say meet 4 project.. haiz but i agreed 2 go with tw they all 1st le, but then again project very impt, but its juz not my nature 2 back out of appointments tt ive already made.. arghhhh, so confused, haiz guess ill stick 2 the bdae party, after all they asked mi 1st.. project i think ill call them ask wad i hav 2 do.

2004-08-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

ok finally tis dumb com of moine can work.. i cud not even switch on the com 4 the past week cuz of some 2pid virus, thun 2dae i try again can work.. hmm, hu cares can work happi liao haha.

blog bout some eventful things tt happened the past week. let mi start with the teachers dae audition, we onli had 2hrs of practice then had 2 play on stage, smth happened, caused mi 2 b really depressed and sad, well abit disgraced up 2 a certain extent, i wudnt wan 2 blog bout it cuz i noe some pple hav access 2 my blog, haiz as far as i noe onli a few pple r aware of wad really happened on tt day and i plan 2 keep it tt way. o ya and heres my decision, i hav made up my mine not 2 play 4 chers day concert anymore despite the frequent pleas frm the klass esp wendy, tw, shaun, colin.. and ya thx 4 trying 2 make mi feel better dun think i was myself 4 the past few daes cuz of tt incident 2. and pls dun pressure mi 2 do smth i really dun think i am really ready 2 do yet, sorry if ive been such a jerk by backing out last min, but i juz gotta do it.

friday had nationalday celebrations, saw all those uniform grp pple in uniform, i felt so sad lo, really regretted not signing on as ci, haiz but nvm i muz stick with wadever decision i make and accept it. had 2 act in front of whole skool.. considering we came up with the skit at last min it was actually quite good, haha majke the skool laff, and i was laffing 2 cuz we got 5 cip hrs juz 4 tt!!! =D went 4 bowling comp after tt.. haha at 1st so happi. it was 2 3game competition.. 1st game my score was 1st then 2nd game 2nd, 3rd game 4th.. woo hoo they announce over the system, "leader is leong shaun" hahaha so happi. i tot i wud at least get 1 of the highest average game trophies.. 1st, 2nd, 3rd hav cup 2 take home.. and i was 4th!!!!! WTH WTH WTH WTH, so sad lo.. haiz guess i screwed up on the last game and oso i told josh tt i was skool bowler so the took away my 10 pin handicap (he 4got 2 put mi as skool bowler) haiz wads even worse is tt after the comp wen i bowled i played a 185 game then a 176 game all around there.. haiz haiz. so sad lo.. haiz sad sad sad. nvm nx yr ill bring back smth i swear!!!! i wun stop trying 2 improve myself. then hcjc coach saw us bowl then soon came down 2 "train" us haha mayb c some hope in us.. still remb him saying "cjc no good bowlers" guess we proved him rong eh, haha mi, jaclyn, joshua bowled so well tt day..take tt paul chua hahaha

2dae went out 2 meet jason,godwin,charmine,joycelin,hongjin.. ate pasta mania then go eat food fest, joined by amos seno yx later on.. food fest nth special, onli special thing is tt its SPUER CROWDED and the ques and SUPER LONG and the food is EXPENSIVE.. played pool with them then went over 2 cine.. wanted 2 watch movie, o ya on the way up the lift i tot i saw some1.. not exactly very pleasent, cuz i really tot i had put tt person out of my mind the all of a sudden tt person pop out again.. haiz, argh, hu cares, might not b her oso, and i dun care either. went 2 starbucks grabbed a frappachino venti, woo so big, no time 2 slowly enjoy it, jason kept rushing mi cuz he wans 2 go home. ya lo so tts it, reached home almost 12.. so guilty lo din study haiz, tml going out again 2 meet some pple. then tue again tw they all invite mi 2 go 4 phylis and yenny bdae.. dunno if i can manage my time properly so many programmes.. muz learn how 2 say "no" but i find it so hard 2 do it.

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napha test 2dae not so bad la.. shuttle run ok, sit and reach i got b.. lols o happi, but i think i lean back 2 much tts y.. =P cheat!! haha standing broad jump my distance went down by 10 cm le!!! wth man.. frm 252 becum 242, tt 1 not very satisfied.. ok here comes tt "angry" part.. i did 50 sit ups but 1 or 2 my hand din cup my head.. tt fuking bias miss smith say minus 10.. fuk her la shes so dam bias against mi juz becus i skipped pe tt time.. i was so bloody angry, but muz control muz control.. dun1 2 make a scenr at the gym, so juz keep quit.. freak, she sux.. pull up oso i did 3 the last 2 do very fast she say 1 onli counted.. ya tts a D.. not i cant get a silver or even a gold, juz becuz of the pull ups, muz train.. and i swear nx yr napha i am gonna approrach another pe cher 2 take.. tt 2pid F-ed up woman is so dam biased.. pls 4giv my language, dam angry with her.. idiots like her should not even b called teachers.

mr gan pronounce my name rongly AGAIN "sawn leon r u paying attention" grr tis time i cant tahan, juz ans back "mr gan its, SHAAAAAAUUUUUUUUN LEONG!" tt old man i think oso dunno his mistake juz reply "ya sawn leong" ................ giv up wad u expect frm a person hu says "once more time, yassis, equiision, consiquience" jeez but at least get my name right will u?!

mi,aimee,tw,zk,colin,shaun,qw skipped gp lect 2 go victors 2 bowl.. on the way out bro paul called zk and colin up. scolded them.. i tot wad happen go c then saw him calling mi 2 go up oso.. i was thinking, tis time die liao, principal caught us 4 skipping lect.. omg die die.. but whew i realised they got scolding cus their uniform 2 baggy.. lol ya lo mine oso he say my shirt pull out until so much, pants 2 baggy, wan mi 2 tuck all the way in like nerd.. idiot fella no sense of style 1.. so nvm juz tuck in let him happi hapi abit, but still muz c him on mon b4 assembly, prob 4 uniform check.. haiz izzit so rong 2 look nice in skool uniform? lol lucky din c aimee, her shirt all out plus she folded up her skirt until quite short.

took taxi 2 victors, had a gr8 time bowling, my average went up 2 150,160.. i bowled a 185 game too =D =D had 2 teach shaun how 2 throw a proper spinner ball.. then i c he so enthu bout bowling so ok la tml gonna giv him 1 of my spinner polyester balls. met his fren frm tpjc, haha like suddenly those 2 becum so enthu bout bowling, like addicted (well i oso am a bowling nut) haha they say nx time i go bowl muz call them along. the res left 1st.. onli left mi and shaun, most of them say pay 4 the lanes on mon.. ask mi and shaun 2 pay 1st, so ok lo nvm. we bowled until 630. went 2 pay 4 lanes.. omg short of 30cents so ps lo.. we both totally no more cash left.. lucky tt manager was kind enuff 2 let us off.. but i promised him tt wen i go there again on fri i will pay him back the 30cents, althou he kept saying nvm.. thinking back if tt colin wud juz pay his freaking share we wun b like tis.. juz becuz he c zk aimee pay later he juz say "eh i oso pay on mon la" and walked off... tt.. tt..... arghhhh 4get it hold on 2 his cash 4 a few extra hrs oso happi.. in the end make every1s job so troublesome.. tis WILL be the last time i EVER pay anything 4 him, and its a promis ill make 2 myself. taking our kindness 4 granted, 1ce or 2wice its ok.. but tis time its 2 much 4 mi 2 take.
napha test 2dae not so bad la.. shuttle run ok, sit and reach i got b.. lols o happi, but i think i lean back 2 much tts y.. =P cheat!! haha standing broad jump my distance went down by 10 cm le!!! wth man.. frm 252 becum 242, tt 1 not very satisfied.. ok here comes tt "angry" part.. i did 50 sit ups but 1 or 2 my hand din cup my head.. tt fuking bias miss smith say minus 10.. fuk her la shes so dam bias against mi juz becus i skipped pe tt time.. i was so bloody angry, but muz control muz control.. dun1 2 make a scenr at the gym, so juz keep quit.. freak, she sux.. pull up oso i did 3 the last 2 do very fast she say 1 onli counted.. ya tts a D.. not i cant get a silver or even a gold, juz becuz of the pull ups, muz train.. and i swear nx yr napha i am gonna approrach another pe cher 2 take.. tt 2pid F-ed up woman is so dam biased.. pls 4giv my language, dam angry with her.. idiots like her should not even b called teachers.

mr gan pronounce my name rongly AGAIN "sawn leon r u paying attention" grr tis time i cant tahan, juz ans back "mr gan its, SHAAAAAAUUUUUUUUN LEONG!" tt old man i think oso dunno his mistake juz reply "ya sawn leong" ................ giv up wad u expect frm a person hu says "once more time, yassis, equiision, consiquience" jeez but at least get my name right will u?!

mi,aimee,tw,zk,colin,shaun,qw skipped gp lect 2 go victors 2 bowl.. on the way out bro paul called zk and colin up. scolded them.. i tot wad happen go c then saw him calling mi 2 go up oso.. i was thinking, tis time die liao, principal caught us 4 skipping lect.. omg die die.. but whew i realised they got scolding cus their uniform 2 baggy.. lol ya lo mine oso he say my shirt pull out until so much, pants 2 baggy, wan mi 2 tuck all the way in like nerd.. idiot fella no sense of style 1.. so nvm juz tuck in let him happi hapi abit, but still muz c him on mon b4 assembly, prob 4 uniform check.. haiz izzit so rong 2 look nice in skool uniform? lol lucky din c aimee, her shirt all out plus she folded up her skirt until quite short.

took taxi 2 victors, had a gr8 time bowling, my average went up 2 150,160.. i bowled a 185 game too =D =D had 2 teach shaun how 2 throw a proper spinner ball.. then i c he so enthu bout bowling so ok la tml gonna giv him 1 of my spinner polyester balls. met his fren frm tpjc, haha like suddenly those 2 becum so enthu bout bowling, like addicted (well i oso am a bowling nut) haha they say nx time i go bowl muz call them along. the res left 1st.. onli left mi and shaun, most of them say pay 4 the lanes on mon.. ask mi and shaun 2 pay 1st, so ok lo nvm. we bowled until 630. went 2 pay 4 lanes.. omg short of 30cents so ps lo.. we both totally no more cash left.. lucky tt manager was kind enuff 2 let us off.. but i promised him tt wen i go there again on fri i will pay him back the 30cents, althou he kept saying nvm.. thinking back if tt colin wud juz pay his freaking share we wun b like tis.. juz becuz he c zk aimee pay later he juz say "eh i oso pay on mon la" and walked off... tt.. tt..... arghhhh 4get it hold on 2 his cash 4 a few extra hrs oso happi.. in the end make every1s job so troublesome.. tis WILL be the last time i EVER pay anything 4 him, and its a promis ill make 2 myself. taking our kindness 4 granted, 1ce or 2wice its ok.. but tis time its 2 much 4 mi 2 take.napha test 2dae not so bad la.. shuttle run ok, sit and reach i got b.. lols o happi, but i think i lean back 2 much tts y.. =P cheat!! haha standing broad jump my distance went down by 10 cm le!!! wth man.. frm 252 becum 242, tt 1 not very satisfied.. ok here comes tt "angry" part.. i did 50 sit ups but 1 or 2 my hand din cup my head.. tt fuking bias miss smith say minus 10.. fuk her la shes so dam bias against mi juz becus i skipped pe tt time.. i was so bloody angry, but muz control muz control.. dun1 2 make a scenr at the gym, so juz keep quit.. freak, she sux.. pull up oso i did 3 the last 2 do very fast she say 1 onli counted.. ya tts a D.. not i cant get a silver or even a gold, juz becuz of the pull ups, muz train.. and i swear nx yr napha i am gonna approrach another pe cher 2 take.. tt 2pid F-ed up woman is so dam biased.. pls 4giv my language, dam angry with her.. idiots like her should not even b called teachers.

mr gan pronounce my name rongly AGAIN "sawn leon r u paying attention" grr tis time i cant tahan, juz ans back "mr gan its, SHAAAAAAUUUUUUUUN LEONG!" tt old man i think oso dunno his mistake juz reply "ya sawn leong" ................ giv up wad u expect frm a person hu says "once more time, yassis, equiision, consiquience" jeez but at least get my name right will u?!

mi,aimee,tw,zk,colin,shaun,qw skipped gp lect 2 go victors 2 bowl.. on the way out bro paul called zk and colin up. scolded them.. i tot wad happen go c then saw him calling mi 2 go up oso.. i was thinking, tis time die liao, principal caught us 4 skipping lect.. omg die die.. but whew i realised they got scolding cus their uniform 2 baggy.. lol ya lo mine oso he say my shirt pull out until so much, pants 2 baggy, wan mi 2 tuck all the way in like nerd.. idiot fella no sense of style 1.. so nvm juz tuck in let him happi hapi abit, but still muz c him on mon b4 assembly, prob 4 uniform check.. haiz izzit so rong 2 look nice in skool uniform? lol lucky din c aimee, her shirt all out plus she folded up her skirt until quite short.

took taxi 2 victors, had a gr8 time bowling, my average went up 2 150,160.. i bowled a 185 game too =D =D had 2 teach shaun how 2 throw a proper spinner ball.. then i c he so enthu bout bowling so ok la tml gonna giv him 1 of my spinner polyester balls. met his fren frm tpjc, haha like suddenly those 2 becum so enthu bout bowling, like addicted (well i oso am a bowling nut) haha they say nx time i go bowl muz call them along. the res left 1st.. onli left mi and shaun, most of them say pay 4 the lanes on mon.. ask mi and shaun 2 pay 1st, so ok lo nvm. we bowled until 630. went 2 pay 4 lanes.. omg short of 30cents so ps lo.. we both totally no more cash left.. lucky tt manager was kind enuff 2 let us off.. but i promised him tt wen i go there again on fri i will pay him back the 30cents, althou he kept saying nvm.. thinking back if tt colin wud juz pay his freaking share we wun b like tis.. juz becuz he c zk aimee pay later he juz say "eh i oso pay on mon la" and walked off... tt.. tt..... arghhhh 4get it hold on 2 his cash 4 a few extra hrs oso happi.. in the end make every1s job so troublesome.. tis WILL be the last time i EVER pay anything 4 him, and its a promis ill make 2 myself. taking our kindness 4 granted, 1ce or 2wice its ok.. but tis time its 2 much 4 mi 2 take.
napha test 2dae not so bad la.. shuttle run ok, sit and reach i got b.. lols o happi, but i think i lean back 2 much tts y.. =P cheat!! haha standing broad jump my distance went down by 10 cm le!!! wth man.. frm 252 becum 242, tt 1 not very satisfied.. ok here comes tt "angry" part.. i did 50 sit ups but 1 or 2 my hand din cup my head.. tt fuking bias miss smith say minus 10.. fuk her la shes so dam bias against mi juz becus i skipped pe tt time.. i was so bloody angry, but muz control muz control.. dun1 2 make a scenr at the gym, so juz keep quit.. freak, she sux.. pull up oso i did 3 the last 2 do very fast she say 1 onli counted.. ya tts a D.. not i cant get a silver or even a gold, juz becuz of the pull ups, muz train.. and i swear nx yr napha i am gonna approrach another pe cher 2 take.. tt 2pid F-ed up woman is so dam biased.. pls 4giv my language, dam angry with her.. idiots like her should not even b called teachers.

mr gan pronounce my name rongly AGAIN "sawn leon r u paying attention" grr tis time i cant tahan, juz ans back "mr gan its, SHAAAAAAUUUUUUUUN LEONG!" tt old man i think oso dunno his mistake juz reply "ya sawn leong" ................ giv up wad u expect frm a person hu says "once more time, yassis, equiision, consiquience" jeez but at least get my name right will u?!

mi,aimee,tw,zk,colin,shaun,qw skipped gp lect 2 go victors 2 bowl.. on the way out bro paul called zk and colin up. scolded them.. i tot wad happen go c then saw him calling mi 2 go up oso.. i was thinking, tis time die liao, principal caught us 4 skipping lect.. omg die die.. but whew i realised they got scolding cus their uniform 2 baggy.. lol ya lo mine oso he say my shirt pull out until so much, pants 2 baggy, wan mi 2 tuck all the way in like nerd.. idiot fella no sense of style 1.. so nvm juz tuck in let him happi hapi abit, but still muz c him on mon b4 assembly, prob 4 uniform check.. haiz izzit so rong 2 look nice in skool uniform? lol lucky din c aimee, her shirt all out plus she folded up her skirt until quite short.

took taxi 2 victors, had a gr8 time bowling, my average went up 2 150,160.. i bowled a 185 game too =D =D had 2 teach shaun how 2 throw a proper spinner ball.. then i c he so enthu bout bowling so ok la tml gonna giv him 1 of my spinner polyester balls. met his fren frm tpjc, haha like suddenly those 2 becum so enthu bout bowling, like addicted (well i oso am a bowling nut) haha they say nx time i go bowl muz call them along. the res left 1st.. onli left mi and shaun, most of them say pay 4 the lanes on mon.. ask mi and shaun 2 pay 1st, so ok lo nvm. we bowled until 630. went 2 pay 4 lanes.. omg short of 30cents so ps lo.. we both totally no more cash left.. lucky tt manager was kind enuff 2 let us off.. but i promised him tt wen i go there again on fri i will pay him back the 30cents, althou he kept saying nvm.. thinking back if tt colin wud juz pay his freaking share we wun b like tis.. juz becuz he c zk aimee pay later he juz say "eh i oso pay on mon la" and walked off... tt.. tt..... arghhhh 4get it hold on 2 his cash 4 a few extra hrs oso happi.. in the end make every1s job so troublesome.. tis WILL be the last time i EVER pay anything 4 him, and its a promis ill make 2 myself. taking our kindness 4 granted, 1ce or 2wice its ok.. but tis time its 2 much 4 mi 2 take.

2004-07-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

sianzation..2dae i am super tired and sleepy..yesterday bowl frm 230 to 730 non stop.. woo~~ haha but very satisfying, i fulfilled a promise i made 2 myself! =) lol dun1 2 say y oso (not in here) juz in case tt person noes.

went 2 skool plog down on table as usual and slet until bell rang, din wan 2 go the dumb religion thingy.. last time i went on tue they ask us stand up and dance 2 christian songs.. bleah, i am not into these type of things and ESP ESP ESP not in the morning.. zombies like mi dun dance in the morning. so i went 2 join the res of my klass in the com lab, told aimee and rachel 2 tell the religion cher tt i am late 4 skool. ok then nth much happened 4 the res of the morning.. i was still half dead, din hav the mood 2 tok of joke with any1 juz yet.

then came blood donation k tis is interesting.. 1st time donating blood. was a little scared, cuz frm young ive always hated needles.. and zk telling my the needle is 3mm thick dosen help at all!! but wen i stepped into the hall.. ok la not tt bad actually felt abit excited cant wait 2 try out, lol i am crazy. took blood test and all tt stuff, i think the onli painful part was wen they prick my finger and squeeze out the blood 2 do some tests b4 they actually suck mi dry.. haha i made tis crappy joke 2 wendy tt they gonna make us fill 1 packet of blood frm tt hole they pierce on the finger.. lol ahha scary tot huh. chat wit tt army medical officer.. he ask where i wanna go, i say hopefully nus medical.. he said he was frm there very fun.. haha told him "see if i can make it 2 j2 1st then think bout uni lo" haha. dunno y the klass guyz hu donated all so hum.. they infront of mi but they dun1 2 go 2 the station wen they call 4 the nx victim.. haha so nvm la i juz went 1st.. they rubbed some sort of cooling stuff on my arm.. then i looked away i tot i felt the needle go in.. so i turn back.. OMG needle naven even touch mi but there position ready 2 poke liao.. lol and it was BIG.. lol i faster turn away, but ok la no pain..haha i had a mini race with tw c hus bag fill faster. and i won! haha. but tt dumb shaun take so long 2 donate.. i think hes the 2nd victim but hes the last 2 come out.. he say the tube jam they muz poke again.. *ouch* haha suay.

after donating we all acted like we lost 2 much blood walk giddyly.. haha had a good laff oso. then zk squat down, i tot he was still fooling around.. then saw his face. wa dam pale.. medical officer took a stretcher 4 him 2 lie down.. he looked really ill lo, dun noe wad happened 2 him at tt time. so we all juz sit around eating biscuits and milo, pei tt zk c if he ok anot. we met tis reservist fella.. ex xji boy frm njc, now a lawer.. ahha he told us 2 rebel against the no hp rule in cjc.. haha yea u go man!! luv his attitude, smart fella oso he said he always pon skool in lc, study himself, told his his chers all dunno how 2 teach, so he study himself, whou, still make it 2 NUS, gr8 fella. we "played" with zk abit tried 2 pull the blanket over his face then look like dead body then put the biscuits and milo on the floor like offering, use straw as joss sticks then all pretend 2 pray.. haha ok crap.. hey but our "prayers" came true.. he recovered after a while. we all pon chi cuz feeling abit weak and tired, o yz i got a yellow bandage wrapped around my elbow area 2 stop the bleeding.. muz wear 4 at least 3 hrs argh. at least not pink like tw heh

tml our "interclass team" gonna go victors and bowl.. so muz bring bowling ball 2 skool.. hope they dun back out. o ya napha test oso.. die pull ups

2004-07-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

oi~~~~~~~~~~~ y my blog no sound!!?! arghh, hope its not my com prob.. ok i was juz reading my previous entry.. hmm, ya kina interesting the things i wud say and do wen i am angry or wen emotions take over, ya but the heck, i wun regret wad i said or did, cuz i am sick of the way i am being treated. ok on a lighter note (i hope) gonna blog bout 2dae..

yup wads new had 2 endure lots of shit frm my parents on the way 2 skool.. i din answer back althou i was about 2 explode inside.. juz told myself 2 cool down and control myself, juz let then nag all they wan, i juz turned my headphones louder ya kinda amusing, i juz sat back pushed all my anger aside and enjoyed my songs.. 1ce in a while pause my mp3 2 listen 2 their nagging then turn it back on, laffed 2 myself, hah idiots wasting their breath do they actually think i am listening 2 a word they say.. ill b damed if i let them affect mi.. ya not anymore.

during assemply the topic the guyz were all toking bout was the ptm.. heard mr chua told qw tt he took a handful of glowing splints put them inside test tube holder and pretend they r joss sticks and pray 2 it.. LOL HAHHAHA, i was the 1 hu did it wen i saw mr chua looking i faster sit down but the "joss sticks" were nearer 2 qw so he got scolded.. shhhhh.... haha.. funny sia tt was really dam funny, not tt qw got scolded instead of mi but the actions we did at tt time, lol crazy crazy. then came chinese.. ya as u noe i din study 4 ting xie, so preactically handed in a blank piece of paper.. cher caught evelin cheating, apprantly she was looking into her pencil case frm time 2 time.. then cher walk over ask her take out wads inside.. she found a piece of paper with the words on it.. i was shocked, omg evelin cheats?! ya she was pleading and begging the cher 2 giv her 1 more chance, but the cher told her no, cuzshe already warned the klass, the matter will b brought up 2 the DM. ya i felt abit sorry 4 her, wanted 2 console her after the cher left, but 1ce the period was over she came 2 mi and said (quite loudly) "shaun u cheat oso rite!" dam her lo wth man, straight away shoot accusations at mi.. let mi get this into ur bloody fuking thick skull.. i noe my chi sux YA I ADMIT IT but i will NEVER resort 2 cheating so blatantly! and dun u dare look down on mi like i am a low life animal hu nids 2 sink 2 such lows 2 even get a pass, fuk was dam angry so wad if my chi sux huh!!!!!!!i had the feeling tt she straight away asked mi tt cuz she noes i noe nth bout chi, BUT LISTEN HERE, id rather get a big fat zero and noe at least i deserved it then cheat like a scumbag and score full marks!! she got caught and yet she wans 2 pull others down with her, some fren you are... as far as i noe, 2 pple cant b trusted in our klass. i told her i handing in a blank paper can check with qw or shaun if u wan.. althou wanted 2 scold her right in her face but nah, 4getit, dun waste my breath toking 2 such pple, not worth my time.

our klass had 2 do maintainence after skool.. cuz the waste paper basket had sweet wrappers.. the girls balmed it on the guyz again... haiz ya wadever la, i hate 2 argue, so everything is our fault rite? we got 6 good 4 nothings and 18 angels sent from above in 1T35 rite? and as i said.. ya wadever, they can think wad they wan 2 think, i dun giv a damn.. anywayz whole klass nids 2 do maintanence, u can point the finger at any1 but in the end its gonna make a difference.. some wonderful klass spirt we hav huh. haiz dunno y today feeling like tt, feeling so much anger inside of mi.. bet u tml will start off on a bad note juz like evryday, i am better off dead.

after skool went out with shaun and qw 2 blow off some steam.. dunno y i am lidat, so much feelings inside of mi but i juz cant bring myself 2 show it, hmm.. guess its my own probs muz settle it by myself, no use bringing others down with u huh. ok back 2 topic haha ate pasta mania, tried a new dish, mussles and clams.. so nice~~~~~!!!!!! haha muz eat again soon. then went 2 macafe, my 1st time going there.. haha sua gu rite? ordered a large ice chocolate.. ya so nice~~~~!!!!! haha can match up 2 starbucks.. they even hav whipped cream!! =PpPp ok sat there enjoying my drink and doing maths tutorial, while those 2 do their PW, all went well until a bunch a thais sat behind us and started smoking and laffing so loudly, shaun(tan) was ticked off so we shift house 2 mosburger haha. ya tts bout it.. i still muz do PW research, hand in by tml.. wendy wans 40 pages!! wth, but i already got 21 pages haha.. kaay better continue hunting

2004-07-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

aiya while waiting 4 my show 2 start i figured might as well blog bout the previous dayz. hmm i realise i am getting quite lazy, nvr blog regularly liaoz. ok so here goes..

friday: drag my bowling ball 2 skool..cuz some of us decided 2 go bowl again with the development team pple on fri. reach skool saw josh and ben, asked if they going they say they busy. went inside cher's room 2 but my trolly bag, onli saw ron's 1 there.. jac, trina jian hui i guess all oso not going haiz, abit disappointed, tot we all arranged 2 go 2gether, then in the end all not going din tell mi. nvm nvm i shall not get angry over it, still hav terry and ron. skool ended at 2 plus on fri.. ron and i were supposed 2 meet at 310 then go 2 rtc. but still early so i tot might as well follow the klass pple 2 taka yoshinoya 4 lunch.. msg ron told him 2 meet later, got carried away told them alot of dam funny jokes, ahha i think we made alot and i mean ALOT of noise there, and tt "aha" joke wendy told was really good~~~!!!!! chat chat chat until almost 430, realise i told ron 2 meet at 430.. lol omg so faster rush back 2 skool.. tt 2pid 605 take so dam long 2 arrive, reaChed skool at 5 plus.. took taxi 2 rtc. all itching 2 bowl. reach there terry told us he 4got 2 book lane 4 us but nvm we can share lane with him. then wen training (4 the development team) started he said, erm u ask them if u can join in anot..at tt moment i tot, someting is really gonna go rong.. ya how right cud i ever b.. no lanes, no space.. every lane hav 4 pple, how u expect mi and ron 2 squeeze in. the side lanes oso taken up by some old men anyhow wacking straight balls. we tot, might as well wait 4 them 2 finish.. but they kept playing game after game after game.. ya ill say it, i was really so fuked up, 2 hrs of waiting behind like an asshole watching those fukers hog the lanes 4 so dam bloody long, really dam angry and frustrated, started 2 wonder y the hell did i even bother 2 cum wen i dun got 2 bowl. ya i was right, the onli way we got a lane is wen the development team finsih training 2 freaking hours later..shit la dun care, mi and ron bought 5 games each.. die die oso muz bowl.. we din go all the way down there 2 wait 4 2 whole hrs and go home. ya not bad la, bowled quite well.. ron hit a 195 game, woo congrats! mi arh.. k la soso took 2 games (which is a dam long time) 2 get my act 2gether, bowled around 145 to 150 games.. not very happi with it, ya but then again how much do i expect frm myself.

saturday (today) : woke up at 12 plus, dam tired not enuff sleep 4 the whole week so weekends muz do some "catching up" haha.. lost track of time yes, AGAIN.. ptm was at 220.. and guess wad, at 220 i had juz finish bathing -.- went 2 skool with mother 2 c mr chua.. had quite a hard time looking 4 his table.. in the end realise he was seated right inside the hall. heard him telling daphne "u r a smart girl" i was thinking 2 myself ya bet he says tt 2 every1.. ya was right again "shaun ur a smart boy look like professor how can get this type of grades" yaya and i wud like 2 thank my mother, my father my frens 4 tis award -.- speaking of mother, she took tt opportunity 2 kpkb alot.. nag like anything, was really freaking angry in frount of cher throw so much shit at mi.. and let mi get tis straight, the onli reason i listened 2 ur shit and not walked away was becuz of mr chua.. dam freaking angry, told her i am not going 2 wadever crap teochew restraunt u and ur dumb sister reserved, dun expect mi 2 ever go out with u again. i am still not over it yet, still boiling inside. ya i noe its my fault tt i din get good grades tts cuz i din study and ive told her tt.. and shes still treating mi and a fuking kid.. dam it i am sick of it. now tt fuking husband of hers is nagging at mi, fuk him la i was juz on the com 4 less than 10 mins rite and tt other bloody idiot is on it the hole day and he din say a thing, fuker.. dam it i hate tis screwed up family

2004-07-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

ok wait ar let mi recall on the stuff tt happened 2 mi so far.. din really hav time 2 cum online regularly so thus din blog so often.

on tue, ya it was colin's bdae.. haha i totally 4got.. no1 wished him happi bdae, but i did la.. abit sad lo.. well i noe the klass hates him and all tt, but at least make his bdae a erm.. "better day?" after skool he wanted 2 treat mi swensons, well not exactly treat but pay 4 half my bill cuz he say bdae go swensons can eat 4 free.. well apparantly onli if u bring 3 pple the 4th 1 eats 4 free -.- ok nvm walked 2 ramen teh 2 eat.. my 1st time eating tt, haha cheap and so nice!! meeting the ex pjc 1st 3 mth frens at 5.. still hav lots of time 2 burn. walked over 2 PS..toked 2 colin, tried so dam hard 2 change his attitdue 4 tyhe better, so tt the klass will start accepting him.. ya althou he has done lots of things tt offended my frens but ill still try 2 tok 2him, dun like 2 c him like an outcast everyday oso 2 b honest. b he very stubborn still think the way hes acting is rite.. haiz finally persuaded him 2 quiet down in klass and not make so many rude comments, he agreed.. k la felt quite gud bout myself oso =P.

then watched him play pool. cuz still hav time.. c him play until so xing ku ask if he wan mi join in.. so k lo played a while with him then left at 5 30 plus (psps sry i got carried away) called them.. ben,kel,ym and cat all arrive liao all waiting fer mi.. so sorry!! they decided 2 do wheelock 2 study, but i had drums in 1/2 hrs time.. so haiz decided 2 meet them after lesson. drums was dam fun, learn 4 new rythems.. but muz prac.. then muz learn another 20 fill-ins omg how 2 cope.. o ya the cher say dun buy drumset at this pt in time, so k lo dun buy 1st.

rushed over 2 bk at wheelock.. cat went home 1st, so we all walked over 2 cine, wanted 2 watch the 9 plus show king arthur.. but onli 940 show left, which ends at 1130 whou so late so 4getit. feel so bad, like they all din get 2 watch becuz of mi, argh. went over 2 hmv cuz ben wanted 2 shop for present 4 veron.. ahha ya hu else rite. lol ok then back 2 cine again, spent the res of the night studying at yoshinoya. then reached home almost 12, jeez so tired. o ya was juz listening 2 tis gu dan bei ban qiu by ou de yang.. haha the more i listen the nicer it gets! yea credict goes 2 moi beztest fren! dank yeeeeew! ptm coming, tis sat.. wonder how am i gonna survive after tt day haiz

u were everything everything tt i wanted, we were ment 2 be supposed 2 be but we lost it. all the memories so CloSe 2 mi juz fAdE away..all tis tyme u were pretending, so much 4 my happi ending....~~

2004-07-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

my day started off on a bad note.. dun wanna tok bout it here. actually can also call it a blessing in disguise. i din even hav the mood 2 fall asleep durings lectures and lesson. juz sat there listening, not feeling like toking 2 the guyz oso. qw oso realised i was like getting irritated very easily which is not my nature at all.. haiz and i apologise frm the bottom of my heart of i had offended any1. but thx 2 the guyz i found my old self back. =)

2dae is jocylyn's last day in cjc, she transfering 2 a international skool or smth lidat.. sad sad, hate 2 c any1 leave frm our newly formed klass. ya so b4 maths tutorial all gathered outside 2 take some photos. ya i pulled grumpy old mr gan in2 take photo with us. 1st time i c him laff sia haha wen i told him "cum take with us la mr gan.. muz smile ok!" haha o btw tis teeth, erm not very nice.. lol k i am so evil.. evil evil.

went 2 orchard after skool.. dun feel like going home so early. colin went 2 his "pool training" so mi shaun and qw walked around taka.. haiz so wasted, food fest over! =( so i settled 4 a hotdog while those 2 ate the jap fried noodles thingy.. o ya i persuaded them 2 skip track training oso! hahaha.. so we can continure walking around, (actually no where 2 go) shaun suggested hmv so ok walk there. on the way we were tokinh bout assuption english skool u.. shaun say got blu and white stripes i dun believe cuz hu wud make until so ugly.. juz nice 2 AES pple walk pass.. i glanced and told him, he was rong. omg he ran all the way back across the road leaving mi waiting like an extra lampost at the traffic junction.. after a while he came back say, ar told u really hav stripes -.- jeez.. the things he wud do juz 2 prove a point.

went 2 hmv, listen 2 michel learns 2 rock album. omg so nice! immediately decided 2 walk over 2 cine sembawang music 2 buy.. haha cuz cheeper. outside hmv a few pple approached us ask us wad we think of youngsters and fame.. muz tok into mike oso and face a camera.. wa lao so PS!! i really dunno wad 2 say, honestly its quite hard 2 ans.. so i said "fame? erm..erm, dunno le" lol so PS!! hope tis is not 1 of those advertisments or smth lidat or i will leave my hse with a paper bag on my head.. dam y i so suay 1, go orchard everytime muz bump into these type of pple.

went home listen 2 the album.. sooooooooooooooooo nice~~~!!!!!! worth everycent of my money! =D =D

take me to your heart take mi 2 ur soul, give mi ur hand and hold me. show me what love is-be my guilding star, its easy take mi 2 ur heart~~~~~~~~

2004-07-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

i think i am finally gonna master spinner! =D i pasted 4 shiney stickers on my ball, then 2dae during training can c the ball rev and spin until so nice.. haha but still muz work on accuracy. nx week no training, haiz sianzation.

ok then took mrt frm clementi all the way 2 woodlands 2 meet tt project group of mine. i think i reached cuzway pt at around 130 was so hungry so go pasta mania 2 eat. meeting time was fixed at 1 the other day and i told them i wud b late and they wud start 1st.. so 130 i msg wendy ask if they were at the library. no reply -.- ok so nvm walk over 2 library.. still cant c them so call wendy.. she sounds like she sleeping (later i learnt tt she was sick) ask her 2 sms mi sharada's number.. then i call sharada she say she not at library, rachel and daphne should b there and she will sms mi their number.. ok so fine i wait 4 the number 2 cum.. i think over 25mins or 30 mins no reply.. i was walking around the library like and idiot.. finally msg cum, i call rachel.. no1 pick up, so i msg ask where r they.. no reply 4 dunno how many centuries.. so i juz took a book sit on floor and read.. finally she call say they eating at cuzway pt.. and by the time they got 2 the library almost 3. freak set the time at 1 then all cum at 3.. sommore din even tell mi or anything lidat, dam fedup, i almost cudnt stand waiting and wanted 2 take train back home.. waste my time.

while they gav out survey 2 the pple there i sat on floor finishing up my bio and chem prac. din wan 2 tell them bout how freaking disorganised our grp is, cant get anything done preperly lo.. nvm 4get it, might as well start, no use grumbling bout our setbacks. no more staple bullets so i walked over 2 popular 2 buy, on the way back bumbed into kel and ym haha so qiao.. they say they were at the library 2nd floor oso and they kanna our survey.. lol. spent the res of the after noon flipping thru books bout homos and human sexuality.. i dun dare 2 hold up the book and read or pple think "wad a perverted fella cum library whole table filled with books on sexuality" -.- the res of the "grp meeting" was crap.. 550 lidat i left.. no pt staying, nth much 2 do oso.. and not in such a gud mood oso.

haiz.. hope tis project wun b a failure, cuz the way i am looking at it, its a total flop.

2004-07-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

hey its good 2 switch on my com again.. haha i din touch it fer 1 whole week.. sue 2 all the activities and some stuff i had 2 do. i had my chi A lvl oral yesterday.. omg it was such a disaster i tell u.. b4 the oral was already expressing my feaR 2 cc and xh, ya but tt wun help either i guess. i was "reading" half way (well if u can call skipping 4 out of 6 words in every sentence reaing) then i felt so dam freaking uneasy! so weird u noe i looked at the res of the passage.. OMG SO MANY I DUNNO!! i guess i juz cracked up, i laffed ya laffed at myself lol the examiners oso laff.. haha ya laff my way 2 a big fat zero.

had 2 go 2 sharada's hse with the res of my grp 2 do project.. so mi, daphne, rachel and wendy headed down 2 yishun.. ya yishun.. so far, actually i wanted 2 go home and sleep, i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired after mass pe. 4got 2 bring my towl or i wud hav took a bath in skool. fell asleep on the bus wile the res chit chat. din do much at her hse.. onli managed 2 complete our survey.. ya we each posted it on our frenster.. *so can u pple plssssssssssssssssssssssss help mi out? help mi do tt dumb survey i wud really appreciate it loads!! =) alot of crap happened at her hse lo.. dun1 2 say so much even if i tried oso cant say finish cuz its really ALOT.. ya they made mi hav some really PS moments oso, dun1 2 say. =T had dinner at her hse.. haha daphne was right. we look like prisoners the food plates abit, erm erm.. k nvm. left her hse i think at 930 pls.. very lazy 2 take mrt all the way 2 JE then take bus sommore i so tired.. juz flagged a cab home. $20 gone.. pain..pain. went hme bathe then slp liao.. 2 tired 2 do anything else. i guess i wun b able 2 go online so often now.. after my midyr results.. i wun say it here, nth 2 b proud of, ya so lidat

2004-07-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

ok 1/3 of my nightmare is over..chi listening is over~~!!! yea, and ok la i am quite pleased with myself. went 2 skool at 845, so sleepy.. i was thinking, tis is crazy, wan mi 2 travel all the way 2 skool and juz take a 45 mins paper and leave? waste time, actually should let us do the test online and juz tune in 2 radio.. faster oso wad.. hmm i should b in charge of MOE muhahaha, then i can scrap the chi education programme oso.. =p ok back 2 the listening, our 2pid klassrm no reception de! radio so fuzzy, cant hear anything.. so instead of looking 4 a better spot which has better reception they added 2 more radios in our klass.. oo wow 3 fuzzy radios blasting chi orchestra music b4 the exam.. bleah so irritating, i imagine myself sitting nx 2 a koi pond playing chi chess with an old man listening 2 tt music.. haha k lame. after the hole thing i compared ans with any1 i cud get hold off.. haha not bad not bad, at least 8/10 so happi!! yayayaya 8/10 big deal meh.. haha but 4 mi it is ok!! my china sux!!! nx step is 2 gear up 4 the oral exams on fri, *shiver shiver* listening muz dig ear 2 prepare, oral how 2 prepare??!! brush teeth ar?

2004-07-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

2dae so reluctant 2 get out of bed.. it was raining.. omg so nice 2 sleeeeeeeeep~~~~~!!!!!! k la but hav 2 go 2 skool anywayz, bleah. 1st thing i did wen i got 2 klass wad drop dead on the table and sleep..soon tt colin came and offered mi sweet, told him i dun wan liao by shaking my head in my semiconscous state.. he said "nvm la giv u in case u wanna eat" ( i was still sleeping btw) then he try 2 put it into my front shirt pocket wth.. lol its so.. erm, nvm cc saw then she tot tt colin was gay.. then after a while he decided the wan the sweet back.. dam he wanted 2 take it out frm my shirt pockt.. lucky i told him, nvm nvm i take out myself.. dam it lo, cant even sleep fer a few mins in peace b4 assembly.. sommore hav all these funny business..yuk yuk yuk. mayb he nids councelling.

good 2dae no nid 2 stand at the parade square and listen 2 bro paul's speech.. raining ma. nth much 4 the res of the day, the usual stuff lo.. falling asleep during lectures laffing like mad during tutorials. dam how 2 pass A lvl, or even promos. ok la felt quite gud bout myself during chem.. the 1st time i actually fully comprehend wad mrs tan is chanting. but, But, BUT, understand onli..dunno if during exams or actual question given 2 mi i noe how 2 do anot. bio prac, as usual, so bo liao, mash up liver, mash up potato.. -.- yaya the usual 2pid stuff bio students hav 2 suffer and go thru every prac.. i mean wads the point of all these thing? ur boss is not gonna take out a piece of liver and pour hydrogen peroxide over it and ask u "tell mi y r there bubbles or ull get fired" =.= crap crap.. i can say the same fer maths 2.. but aiya lazy 2 type, fingers still pain frm "intensive bowling" tt day.

ya rote a 10 mins essay 4 chi.. cher not here and i oso hav no idea wadsoever wad 2 rite.. so i tot aiya 2 hell with it la, i am not gonna spend my whole afternoon sitting here writing bout wad i should hav done in the past.. arghh. 2 many painful memories, but of cuz i wun rite them down, those r private stuff.. so juz feed cher some lame psle sob story. not going skool tml.. 2lazy, anyway 1/2 day oso.. haha

and baby i surrender 2 strawberry ice cream, never ever end of all this love...

2004-07-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

yea, 2dae is quite an eventful day fer mi, full of ups and downs.. haiz but i noe my life 90% of it sux, the 10%? ahah well can say they r keeping mi frm killing myself haha. 2dae went 2 skool with a heavy hear, tot gonna get back test papers, well lucky none 2dae. but i noe i fail maths really badly so mr gan's "i cant believe some pple can actually score single digit" scolding actually affected mi much, well was already feeling like crap and i expect tt person 2 b mi. nx was mrs tan, she said, "i can tell some pple din put in effort 4 the chem paper at all" she was staring at mi while she said tt.. haiz some 1 pls shoot mi in the head. expected expected.. haiz muz keep telling myself tt. i fell asleep during her lesson after the scolding she gav the klass...actually my eyes really closing liao so i tot 2 myself, y not i juz close my eyes and listen.. haha cant tahan rest my head on my hand and sleep.. wen i heard her stop toking i faster wake up, saw her looking at mi and saying "haiz haiz.. arghh shaun!!!!" the res of the klass looking at mi and laffing oso.

last period, project work.. k la tt 1 quite fun.. mr chua brought us 2 the com lab.. haha so while the other grp members search 4 info (actually i think every1 playing yahoo pool instead). then shaun tan and wendy go log on 2 my blog, haha actually we juz log on the play the music i had there.. or else so sian! i dun wanna spend the hole period reading bout homosexuals and gays -.-" aiya no choice oso, tt sharada force mi go rite the grp meeting minutes..dun care i am juz gonna bullshit alot make it sound like we actually did some research..heh heh

after skool went town with zk and colin.. juz wanted 2 faster grab a bite at mos burger and head back 2 skool 2 meet the bowling pple. wa so qiao, on the way bumped into cathy with her big bunch of pjc frens..call her frm behind she like nvr hear, until she about 2 walk into far east then look around and shouted "o hi shaun" erm haha ok at least still remb mi.. lol on the way back 2 skool met andy on the buz, ya so i ask him bout promos, easy 2 pass anot and all those stuff, cuz i very scared i retain!!!!

met up with ben, josh, jaclyn...took mr ho's car, ya tt freking idiot bowling cher i hate so much!! 2pid car so small squeeze until like mad, u noe its like stuffing 4 rou paos into a cup and trying 2 close the lid? bowled 4 an hour at civil service clup...1 person 1 lane.. heh not 2 bad, but tt ho behind keep eh shaun u shoud aim , eh joshua u should lift more, eh shaun, eh jaclyn, eh ben u missed.. arghh like he coach lidat yak yak yak, every shot i throw like muz rite report and statistics izzit?! after 1 hr we still wan 2 bowl so go back RTC with him.. ok la 2dae i dunno, he was actually quite nice 2 mi, toking 2 mi, praising mi sometimes oso.. mayb i should cut him some slack too, wad u think? ya mayb, lol juz like my gud buddy said, 4give and 4get, ya mayb ill 4give, but i wun 4get tts 4 sure..woo RTC play in frount of the bowling development team.. ahha not bad 4th frame 88 liaoz.. haha the lanes so nice.. aiyoooo but look the the developmet team, all cannot make it 1 le!! die nx yr dun tell mi we gonna suk even worse than tis yr, haiz haiz how how? die die..ya while waiting 4 buz i realise EZ link no $$ how???!! lucky got 1 guy waiting nx 2 mi, so i asked if he cud gimmie some coins cuz i hav a $2 bill 2 change.. he say he onli hav 60cents, omg i tot die how.. then he said "nvm la u take it" was quite reluctant cuz like abit unfair, but he insisted.. haha i am soo grateful he ever u are! if onli all s'poreans can b like him.. bought ticket then i was bout 2 throw away wen i tot hmm mayb bus conductor suay suay will cum, so nvm put in pocket and sleep.. soon after we awaked by a fella tapping my shoulder.. guess hu???!!! BUS CONDUCTOR!! hahaha PHEW lucky i din throw the ticket of ill get thrown out.

went 2 ginza plaza 2 cut hair after tt, ya quite late liao almost 9.. wanted 2 cut at jentzen (hmm correct spelling?) but they say closing dun1 cut anymore, i ask "1 more can?" she still say cannot, argh, fine...went 2 some malay barber instead =.= he cut until i look so funny lo!! i dun wanna elaborate, very ps u noe!! i swear i swear i swear i will cut at some place with "reputation" nx time like reds, supercuts or smth lidat.

took taxi home after tt.. haha chatted with the driver, lol he was cursinf and swearing at tt gal hu juz stand at the taxi stand but dun1 take taxi.. lol tt "word" came out alot frm his mouth, i hear until like abit amusing.. haha ya so lidat went home.. tml chi cher wun b in skool.. chi last period.. hmmm should i pon? =PpPp

2004-07-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

nonononoononononono. tis cant b tis cant b... how can portugal lose?!!!! arghh.. k la 1-0 to greece.. man tis sux, i din stay up all nite 2 c portugal lose. =( =( but actually can tell tt greece is strong, equally deserving of the win, well erm ya tts all, but i noticed tt the greece coach changed strategy after the 1st half, frm defensive 2 attacking, i guess tt was deciding factor.k la i am no football pro but at least can make tt observation heh..

well 2dae din do anything much.. amn i feel so FREE~!!!!!!! cuz midyrs r over,well not exactly over but left chi paper, and ya u noe mi, i dun really bother bout chi cuz even if i bother bout it no diff, will still fail. (funny i dun feel 1 bit worried) i oso dunno wad 2 study 4 chi, haiz or is tis some sorry excuse i am giving myself? well anywayz i seriously dun c myself touching any chi stuff in preperation 4 the midyr. well guess i can add chi 2 my "midyr sure cannot make it" list. spent the afternoon hitting on bio txbook with drumsticks "practicing". i am really determined 2 buy tt $550 drum set!!!!! hope its not some crappy quality.. erm ya so tts about it

2004-07-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

actually i wanted 2 blog yesterday but dunno y my 2pid internet got prob cant get into blogspot..grr everytime cock up 1 lo. ok so here goes...saturday:

went 2 taka at 1015, actually shaun told mi 10am sommore say "dun b late ar" so i reach there 1015, i tot k la not so bad, let him wait 4 mi 4 1ce cuz everytime tt fella late. how i noe wen i reach, i was the onli fella there..arghh wth wth wth, called him oso nvr pick up =.= so juz walk around taka looking like an idiot.. 1 fella in skool U walking round aimlessly. luckyly met wendy, haha actually she met mi then she said she saw mi then tot i saw her (but i din!!) so she keep following behind mi (while i was walking aimlessly), until i stop 2 check moi hp 4 msgs then she pop up in front of mi.lol din noe i tt blur lo. ya so both of us juz stand outside mac toking rubbish while waiting 4 tt "dun b late ar" fella.. he finally came at 11. omg 11!!!!!! he said he had stomach ache =.= wa lao everytime con mi of 1hr of sleep lo tt day oso came almost 1hr late.

went 2 eat ajisan 4 lunch..tried the soft shell crab..hmm ok la not tt fantastic, i prefer the prawn mayonaise i ate the other day haha. eat finish 3 of us went 2 wait 4 bus.. but in the end decided 2 take taxi cuz if we took the bus we wud b late, and none of us wanted 2 miz a relaxing SPA treatment.. haha k lame. bio spa was a disaster.. more like home econs lo, muz cut 6 3cm potato cubes, and take 3 of them 2 cut into 27 1cm cubes each.. wa lao so difficult 2 get nice square cubes lo the cher come around check length if they r really "cubey" anot.. obviously no time so i anyhow chop lo.. 1 potato 1 cube, juz chop of both ends then the top and bottom then measure 3cm and chop.. the 27 1cm cubes even worse i all chop by "argaration" hahaha.. sure fail.. and i wasted alot of potato oso. then i was so pround of wad the 1st 2 3cm cubes i cut i keep rolling them on table like dice. haha.. but in the end i din manage 2 finish cutting so i fake and come up with ALL my readings..shhhh... sure fail sure fail.. waste my 2pid time chopping oso

after tt went orchard..no1 wanna go the food fest =( all not hungry... went esplanade library with qw and tw.. tw wanted 2 borrow some guit scores.. mi ar, juz go there dig out some drum books and read.. heh had 2 admit they were quite "enlightening" haha. then qw went home mi and tw wanted 2 go swee lee, we had this rough idea it was somewhere around bras basah road.. tw say its at bugis so took train there. then i decided 2 call sam, he say its at city hall -.- diao.. so took train back 2 city hall.. walk around aimlessly again, we stopped in front of chijmes we looked hopelessly lost so i called sw, he say at bras basah complex 3rd level.. hmm yea tt helped abit..but we still donno where is tt place!! went with my gut feeling and juz walk, then cant tahan liao ask a sercurity gard where is bras bash complex.. he say "the building nx door" =.=" *speechless*

swee lee nice sia saw alot of really kool durm sets 650 lidat woo can buy can buy..tw was trying out guits haha we say alot of those 4digit price guits, wa so nice lo but we onli can "wa wa" dun dare 2 touch.. haha. went 2 the nx door shop.. saw another drumset 550 OMG OMG!! cheeeeeeeeeeep!!!! sommore hav 1 extra cymbal and comes with seat... OMG!! haha but i dunno if the quality is gud anot, muz ask sam cum down with mi 1 of these dayz 2 test out.. after all i am a drum newb.

2004-07-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

ok 2dae i am feeling alot better la.. dunno y oso. i met qw and shaun(tan) at taka tis morn. well we supposed 2 meet at 11.15, i reach at 11.30 i was thinking, die liao, so late.. and i hate 2 b late lo. reach taka gav shaun a call.. he say he not there yet -.- wa lao, qw oso nowhere 2 b seen.. dam i hate 2 b "early" as well. so walked around and finally settled at mac.. while drinking my ice milo qw finally arrived.. shaun still not there lo.. dam i swear he ask mi go out nx time i will arrive 45 mins late then i wud b "on time" haha ok u get the drift. makan at ajisan then we went best danki (correct spelling?) i play the x-box there until we were late 4 my chem SPA.. haha so heng we rush into the lab juz wen the cher say "prac will start in 1 mins time"

prac ok la.. dam i spilled the pottasium thinghy on my hand wen the cher was looking!! sure minus some marks.. had 2 wash my hand with sulphuric acid 2 remove the stain.. haha redox titration ma so it will sort of "dissolve" the stain.. haha smart rite. o ya i tried toking to tt anti-social limin 2dae.. i wanted 2 take the cloth 2 wipe table so ask her if it was hers and cud i borrow(cuz it looks new lo).. she juz stare at mi then carry on with her prac... wth dao mi le!! so nvm juz take.. until i realise tt every table oso had the cloth, so not hers.. haha i dumb sia. but the point is NO WONDER SHE HAS NO FRENS LA! i think she wans it tt way oso lo.. the gals in our klass oso try toking 2 her ask wads her interest she reply "y should i tell u"..dam wad a frendly gal huh. 2dae onli confirms my perception of her.. and trust mi its not very good either. man she dosen even acknowledge wen pple tok 2 her lo even the gals in our klass.. aiya wadever suits u la, wanna b A.S then go ahead, not my prob.

went 2 orchard with tw,qw,shaun and colin after the SPA.. we bumped into 2 talent scounts.. more like they bump into us lol.. ask us if we wud like 2 take up acting or smth lidat and they produced light yrs tt series.. bla bla bla.. ask 4 hp no. so so juz giv lo.. cum 2 think of it i not really interested in appearing on tv, ahha unless they pay mi 2 b some extra hu walks by or sit at canteen heh heh. watched spiderman 2.. hmm was quite a nice movie..worth watching. ya i oso checked with yamaha at PS appratly they dun hav studios avaliable 4 jamming.. haiz wanted 2 like get tw 2 play his guit mayb some1 else 2 play paino or shaun can play his violin then i "play" drums.. nvm la tw saw hav other studios around.

tml no skool.. i think ill sleep in then.. then.. arghh.. c my mood and wad i feel like doing.. midyr juz over (still hav chi but tt 1 ar, no hope) and i dun wanna go near my books juz yet.

2004-06-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

maths haiz, nvm la ill juz tell u bout it.. i dun do so many questions.. total 67 marks gone, din count thise i got rong yet, tts funny, i told domi, she say she oso same as mi 60 over marks gone hight 5 with her -.-.. well i din really believe her lo, she is like those super hardworking type.. 60 over marks gone? nah hard 2 believe.. aiya wadever la nth 2 b freaking proud of. i made a choice yesterday.. either bio or maths.. 1 of htem muz fail, guess it has 2 b maths. ya althou mid yr is so called over 4 mi, but i am not rejoycing as well.. i feel so dam depressed.

i went bowling with joshua and jac after moi paper.. kept quiet all the way 2 victors bowl, i am so dam sad lo. haiz mind still on tt paper..until they had 2 "cheer" mi up by telling mi 2 4get bout wad juz happen cuz its over and i cant do anything bout it. bowling ok la not tt fantastic.. skin on my middle finger all raw, came out, but nvm la endure abit and bowl with them. treat them both drinks after tt cuz i lost 2 joshua 1 on 1 game by 6 pins.. haiz.

well at least i hav the midyrs off my back and i can continue plotting how i should commit suicide without feeling guilty tt i am not studying, heh. i juz learnt some stuff bout wad tt fuked up bowling cher tried 2 do 2 mi after toking 2 uncle richard..i cant believe it, how can he b so evil, so schemeing, told myself 'stand up 4 urself, dun let him abuse u' i cant, i juz cant do it, cuz i dun wanna giv up bowling..freak old man, so dam old still act until so childish bloody power hungry freak..ur lucky tt my passion overites my common sense 4 the time being or i swear i swear u will regret ever trying 2 push mi around.

its not fair..y do i still feel so down and empty inside even wen exams r over.

so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide
and i'm praying for a lifeline, cos i'm
losing you
so tell me why, you took care enough to try
are you giving up this fight, i can't stand,
wont stand, losing you

2004-06-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

chem paper 2 day.. no hope wadsoever, wasted my 2 days of studying. not gonna say anymore, cuz ya tts how i feel bout it and i am not gonna blog 4 wed's maths cuz its gonna b the same thing. i feel like shit ok, so tired cant concentrate and wen i try i juz wanna giv up cuz of so many things i dun understand....................................................yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy so screwrd up???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so confused, my heads in a mess i cant think straight, i am so tried, so dam tired of tis, y cant i cope with wad i am going thru right now????????????!!!!!!!!!! fuk i cant take tis anymore

2004-06-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

2dae nth much 2 blog about..woke up at 930, had 2 rush like crazy 4 my bowling lesson at 10. 2daes lesson not very productive the way i c it. the fella wasnt there 2 start up the lanes so had 2 listen 2 uncle richard's good old speech bout lane conditions and christmas tree oiling tt ive heard a million times, can prob recite the hole thing out. k la not tt its all crap but those onli apply 2 hook ball bowlers, i am a spinner so like all no use 2 mi oso. made 2 new frens 2dae, lol 1 fella frm gess (i din noe), and another 1 dunno frm wad skool.. we shared lane 2gether with tis gal frm fajar sec.. hmm she not bad lo quite pro. abut despite being able 2 use the lanes so late we still ended at 1230.. not fair lo.. haiz.

went home and slept 4 one hour, really very tired then stone in frount of my chem notes 4 awhile then go microwave 2 chicken wings and eat. i gonna continue my revision 4 chem later 2nite.. i really hope i can pass this exam, but if i fail which i most prob will haiz, i will keep telling myself, its expected, i deserved it.